Why Me?

Jamie Turner

11/12/13

Gold Stream

Well my life is pretty much ruined.  Why me? Why god? Why? I thought Pop was a good person.  I know he ain’t doin it to hurt me but why does he gotta go?  I have to go through the rest of my summer witout my ole’ man.  My bestfriend.  I just wanna wake up and smell Pop smokin another cigarette in the morning, go down stairs and talk to him for a lil bit before I hop in the shower.  I just… Why me?  I thought pills were medicine.  How could they hurt you?  I really need some some sleep but I just can’t close my eyes.  It hurts too bad.  Maybe this is a dream.  Ima just close my eyes and wake up and it’ll have never happened.  I’ll be good.  It ain’t even a big deal.  Who am I kidding?  What has happened to my life?  I need a plan asap.  I gotta get a job.  Ma and Kell need me.  God only knows how much we need that money.  Then I’ll join the marines when I turn 18.  That’ll be a good amount of money for us.  But maybe he’ll be out by now.  Oh god this is bad! Who is gonna be there for everyone else?  Who is gonna take me to baseball practice?  How will ma ever get Kell to piano straight from the office?  Pop must hate us.  If he could just go and… I don’t even want to know what he was doing or who he was wit.  Oh God!!!!... What am I gonna tell Jared when he realizes my Pop ain’t here no more?  Jimmy ain’t gonna know.  He’ll think pop is just workin extra hours down the mill.  Ma better not be doin that stuff.  I love pop to death and I love ma to death but if ma was drugged out i couldn’t take it.  We gone have to get ride a the dogs?  Jack ain’t a bad dog but hes gotta stop pissin in the house. Holly ain’t bad either.  Shes just gotta stop eating the darn trash.  Damn dude… This is really happenin isn’t it?  Mama better not give up on me and Kell.  I can’t stand Kell let alone raise her.  Shes gotta quit annoyin me to deaf wit that stupid music and her stupid phone.  She ain’t got no friends hows she gettin all a these texs.  Nah it ain’t her fault.  She don’t even care about Pop.  Me and pop were boys but he never loved either of us more than the other.  Are ma and Pop getin a divorce?  How long did they know about this?   Oh well I gotta get some sleep.

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