Girl, Boy

Posted by Kara Lazorko in English 2 - Pahomov - E on Tuesday, November 24, 2015 at 7:05 am

IT’S SHE, NOT HE! I don’t know why you keep referring to me as a girl. Just because I still have boobs doesn’t mean that I am a female. I was born in the wrong body, and you know that. Even though we came out of same womb, and we look exactly alike, doesn’t mean that we have to be the same gender. It would be wrong if I called you a boy right? Especially when I know damn well that you have a vagina and giant breast like me. If I can’t afford the surgery of getting mine removed, and you know that! If I could get my boobs removed, then I would. Mom doesn’t support that idea, and I couldn’t persuade her even if I tried. I am even saving up every last dime to remove them.

Why are you staring at me like that? Is it , because you want me to be your twin “sister” ? You’ are not okay with the idea of having a twin “brother”? This is who I really am. I’m sorry if this disappoints you in anyway. You need to come to realization that once we come out the womb, we chose who we want to be in our lives, and not always what our genes makes us.You’re my sister, and you should be in support of any decision I make. You’re supposed to have my back, and not be on mom’s side. I am not comfortable with who I am, and this is who I am deciding to be.

Maybe our genes get mixed up, and we both came out as girls. Maybe mom was sick or had something going on when she got pregnant, that could change me being a girl. I was supposed to be born with a penis, and grow up to have a mustache. You were born the way you are, and I don’t judge you at all.

I think I will even change my name while I am at. I’ll change it to Jason, Alex, or evan Marcus. I’m just tired of you seeing me with the eyes we share in common as a “she.” How many times do I have to tell you?! I am a he!!! I don’t identify as a boy. I am finally comfortable with who I am. I am finally comfortable with going out public, and being who I was meant to be. A boy.

Comments (3)

J'Lynn Matthews

I can't personally relate to the character, but I can relate society to it. There are transgender people who are disrespected and made fun of. I think it is extremely weird to be teased about your gender. But for the character to be addressing their sibling makes the monologue even stronger because it is dealing with family. One moment that wil stick with is when the character starts to feud with their sibling to make them realized that they are a different person now.

Alexander Gomez Torres

I can not relate but if i had to pick one moment from this monologue i would pick the part where hes comfortable with himself being a boy and wants the person he is talking to, to know he is a boy.

Zahirah Poree

I love this so much! Being transgender is one of the most controversial, and discussed topics in society today, and I really think you wrote an accurate account of how most transgender people feel in their ow way. This is powerful because its actually what people have to go through on a daily basis. One moment that will stick with me from this piece is when the character asks "Why are you staring at me like that? Is it because you want me to be your twin sister? Are you not comfortable with having a twin brother?". You can almost feel the frustrations behind the text, as the character struggles for acceptance.