During the two week gap before the main event occurs, Claire simply acts as though Natalie's harsh words and rumors are not affecting her on the outside.  In school, Claire tries to ignore the people pestering her and bottles all of her emotions up inside. After all, there is no one Claire can turn to anyway because everyone is so caught up in the lies that Natalie is spewing about her.  Claire feels even more alienated then she did before.  In her most recent post on GupShup, Calire says, "I am stuck in a whirlpool of pain. And I swear, it's all because of you. But you'll get yours in the end, I promise."  Claire feels helpless when it comes to the suffering that she is experiencing from the actions of Natalie.  However, she knows that within about a week, Natalie will get what's coming to her. 

I'm still lacking a charger, it's irritating me.

 I'm going to Howard, it's final.
Tomorrow is the trip with the A.A Lit class to a museum in D.c a tad bit exciteddd

A lot of things happened to me today. First I came into school and was really really tired and fell asleep in the hallway. Then Harrison saw me and laid down next to me and tapped me on the shoulder to wake me up. When I opened my eyes he was like all up in my face for no reason and was like "Freda... you look really tired... if you fall asleep in math one more time Latimer is going to fail you... Come with me and I'm going to buy you a monster." I was once again reminded why I love Harrison.
Then I went to English class and hardly anyone was there. And Chase seemed really angry... but not your normal kind of angry. It was the "this is painful to watch because he's not yelling... he's just upset" kind of angry. And it was strange because... when Chase got mad it reminded me of when my mother is angry or sad about something, she just cleans really vigorously, like she'll sweep the floor so hard the pain chips off. Mr. Chase was doing that today, he was just like fixing everything and cleaning everything but it was weird because instead of just throwing away the scrap paper on the ground he crumpled it up violently first into little balls. It was very hard to watch and I kept wanting to give him a hug but I didn't know if it was the right time for a hug or not or if I should tell a joke... so i just did my work and that was that.
I went to Urban Ecology which was boring and lunch was uneventful except that I got mozzarella sticks for lunch were was awesome. Then I went to math and that was stressful because I lost my papers that were my homework and warmups and packets and basically almost cried and died. But, I didn't fall asleep thanks to Harrison and Monster. Then I had Lauf and we didn't do much except for talk about the government shutting down which SUCKS because now I can't go on the trip to washinton DC with Kay and his AAL class tomorrow cause I didn't get to go last time cause I got sick and now the museum will be closed UGH! So then I had engineering which was fun. I was helping Cody make a chair. Then I snuck into Kays and was watching him and Sinnea teach and was sitting at his desk when BAM! Right in front of me were my math papers I was looking for. I must have left them in there from yesterday. I was so happy, Kay said he knew they were mine by the doodles.
Then after school Sam came to see me and we walked around the city in the rain for about two hours. It was really beautiful and I got a frosty... :D Then I went back to school for the poetry slam and that was just really great! We got in 3rd but that is only because the other schools just play the same people every single time instead of mix it up and give everyone a turn like we do. But that's ok it was really fun.
Then I went home and I guess my brother came into the house even though he wasn't supposed to when we were out and left me a Harley Davidson jacket. I guess he's trying to bribe or guilt me into accepting his apology but I've fallen for that too many times and I'm really done with him. It was very manipulative and low of him to do that to me. Now I'm talking to Sam and reading One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest.

Sims confuse us. Makes perry's eyes burn :(

starting with dunda.
ending with annoying sherif.
inbetween comes chase and laufenberg.

and secretly ms. hirschfield too.

Claire loves being able to hide who she really is behind a website identity.  Using this site, she is able to say anything that she wants about Natalie without having to deal with any negative consequences.  Also, on this site, she is friends with people from India who speak only very broken English aside from their native tongue.  Therefore, she has a way to let out her feelings to an audience, even though this audience really has no idea what she is talking about.  Today, she posted the following:

"There is a feeling of a hidden reality that comes with this site. i love it."

It is clear that Claire's online identity is benefiting her emotionally by letting her express her feelings that would otherwise be ignored in her physical reality.

Check it out for yourself.

I'm home. 
once again. 
ugh. 

I hate being sick, wahhh. 
This facebook thing for my storytelling characters is really awkward, especially because i just staged a breakup hahaha. 

Whateverss. 
Tomorrow is my 8months with my boyfriend, i'm so excited(:
dis is soo noiiceeee.
 
I MISS ALEXIS AND BIANCAAA</333. 
but i have all the gatorade you could imagine(((((((((((:
byeebyee.

I am extremely tired today. I have been late all week but today I got to school on time. With this I didn't not get nearly enough sleep. And since I was on time I took the 7:43 train. When I take this train there is no time to get food. No food makes me really bitchy, as immature as it sounds. 

I hope I can get my hands on coffee at some point during lunch, or even a soda. Also, I hope school lunch isn't crappy today.