Well i wanted to stay home because I needed to work on my capstone and my calculus benchmark. Sorry everyone. I know you miss me ;]

really, really enjoyed the past few days.

now for next Tuesdayyy. :]

i'm such a weirdo.

just sayin

whaddup widd it?
now im going to sleeeeeep(:​

There's this guy who's a family friend of ours except we don't like him that much. With that said he's not really a family friend he's just friends with our family friends, and since he's such a dick he has no friends and latches on to us. He constantly insults and puts down other people. He's also extremely pessimistic and bitches about everyone and everything. Anyways, I receive a text from this douchebag who ask what my house number is because he thinks he's right outside. I'm like what the fuck? So i got outside to find him parking his 1980's vespa outside our house. He then asks if he can get a drink. I get him a glass of water and know I'll have to make small talk with him which is really hard for me to do because we just don't relate at all. As we "chat" he bitches about everything and then insults me and tells me I should be driving (coming from a guy who drives a fucking Vespa). As some time goes by my mom comes home and I ditch her with him, to go work on my capstone.
I felt bad, but she understands. I'm seeing a movie with this dick next Tuesday. Wish me luck

what makes you think acting like a dumb b*tch will get you anywhere in life. Seriously, putting on the voice of a three year old, giggling, and twirling your hair just makes you seem like a cheap immature trick. I'm just saying, if you want the guy to like you act your age, the whole little girl act only gets you so far, I mean unless you want everyone to see you as sleazy, i mean easy.

So... I have a lot of stuff to do. I have a Calc benchmark due tomorrow, my process paper, and plus I have to babysit tonight at 6:30. I'm not hopelessly behind or anything like that on Calc though, I started it a long time ago, so doing it tonight is doable... or at least it was until about 30 minutes ago. I walked into my house to screaming and yelling. My family is having one of the biggest fights we've ever had... The only reason I'm even writing this is because my sister is in the bathroom, as soon as she gets out I'm going to have to go back to talking to her and trying to sort all this shit out. This is a really bad time for a family fight... And I know I've asked Latimer for an extension too many times at this point. I don't even know what to do... I don't understand why it seems like no one in this family knows when to shut their mouths. Sometimes, when someone is really angry, it's best to just shut up, even if they are saying something wrong about you that isn't true or that you disagree with, shut the fuck up for now. Then, when the person feels better, and things are less tense, you can go back and say "Remember when you said this? Yeah... I disagree." or "I don't think that's true." and then have an actual productive conversation instead of just screaming and throwing shit and hitting each other like a bunch of wild animals. Go in your room and cry about it till things calm down, is it really that fucking hard? I don't think so! We're a family of fucking artists, you can't go in your room and find a fucking creative outlet? When I get mad I got in my room and cry to myself, or get online and talk to a friend, or write something, or read a book. Then I wait till everyone has calmed down and then I talk to them about the issue... I don't see why this is so fucking hard for everyone else in this house. Seriously... I love my mom a lot... but she needs to grow up. And my sister has to figure out this whole selfish thing... I'm worried she might be narcissistic... Honestly... I hate to sound like a cocky asshole... but I'm honestly worried about leaving for college... I don't know how these two are going to do without me here next year... my sister is a full time job, and my mom already has one.

CAPSTONE!!!! TOMORROW!!!!! <---my brain right now

spencer is cute as fuck.
k bye.​