Coming back from something that made you cease chasing your passion really makes you wonder how to get back. I use to find so much passion in guitar and music. It was one of those things that stuck in your mind all day and that you just couldn't get enough of but after picking it up a few times after that incident. It really didn't feel the same. Its like the strings of my guitar now turning black from old rust reflect the very degraded heart I once had when I was going through that incident. As it feels foreign to me now, I feel foreign to it as well. But in the wake of redemption, I realize my passion is still there, I still love music and I'm so willing to pick it back up again. Which is why I took another step at redemption, and bought new bright and shiny strings to replace the old.