Radio

​Fake radio to be precise, i've taken to loading recordings of talk radio from the gta series because on a level it's fairly entertaining to listen to it while doing other things. The events that take place on these programs is much more... unrealistic then what would happen in reality.

i'm weird.

From the moment I started taking notice of boys in like, first grade, I have always been the one to fall in love sooo easily.

I can become so instantly attracted to a guy for any random reason....whether it be because of his looks, his personality, or how nice he was to me on the bus this morning.

I know this is probably a really bad thing, but I just can't help it...

But there's this one guy in particular... <3

It's just the little things that he does that make me sooo damn anxious to see him and talk to him again.  The way he teases me as if we were little kids or the way he acts like he doesn't get jealous when he sees me with another guy.  I like that "tough guy" approach he takes whenever I need his help.  And he's always there to back me up in an argument and take my side.

I like his sarcasm and his crooked smile. :]

It's really hard to explain. :\

Just had to get that out there.





Running

I ran 4.8 miles yesterday, hiked 4 miles this morning, and plan to run another 4-3 miles later today. I like running. My legs used to bother me a lot when I started student's run. I would always have really bad muscle cramps in my calves and my legs would go numb from pain. Eventually that pain went away and I then got really bad muscle cramps in my thighs and my legs would go numb from all that pain as well. I really didn't enjoy those muscle cramps, but I figured they would go away if I just kept on running. After a month or so of running the pain wouldn't stop and I was starting to get worried and frustrated. I ran 6 miles on Thursday and my legs were REALLY bothering me, but I pushed through. I wasn't in so much pain that it  restricted me from running (thank god). Anyways, after I ran the 6 miles my legs haven't bothered me since.  I no longer get any cramps in my calves or thighs when I run or walk upstairs. It's awesome, and now I can run with really nothing stopping me, that is until I run out of breath. I know explained all the negatives that come with running such as muscle pain but every time I come back from a run I feel great. The endorphins really hit me hard. I also like running because my legs are getting toned and who doesn't want toned legs?

Spring Break

So Spring Break has started however its a bit hard to tell that it is supposed to be a break. It might be a break from school however now I have to worry about working at the pharmacy. Since they know that I go to a Philadelphia public school, they know that I have a whole week long break. That means that they get to call me in the morning and probably will call me every morning to ask me to come in early because they are 'understaffed' when in reality they are not, they just have a bunch of meaningless things that they would want me to do. It can be a real pain in the butt, however I guess I can not complain because I am getting paid for it. Making money just to spend on my college education. How great. In the meantime I totally forgot we still have to do these daily stories... so ugh yeah. Can this story count for like 3 stories that I have missed? :D

A Day in the Life: Tanzania

Day in the life timeline

In Tanzania and all of sub-Saharan Africa, a child's life is much harder than it is in the U.S. While public education exists, it lacks a decent student to teacher ratio and basic supplies. Schools are often long distances from children's homes, and traveling can be dangerous. Finally, malnutrition makes learning very difficult. Children are also at risk for other deadly diseases and infections including HIV/AIDS and malaria. 

Life is just as difficult for adults in Tanzania.  In fact, many are less educated than their children, since primary school has only recently become required. Most work long hours in the fields and receive little to support their families. It is very difficult to break this poverty cycle in Tanzania. 

Because I visited Malawi last year, most of the information was expected.  One fact that was surprising was the high enrollment rates that the country boasted. I hadn't expected that 97% of children would be enrolled in primary school.  However, it is important to keep in mind that enrollment is not attendance. 

Sources: 
Cameron, Lizzie. "Tanzanian Family Life." CNN. CNN, 14 Nov 2007. Web. 18 Apr 2011.

Hagen, Nadia. "Photo exhibition: Rural life in Tanzania." Crossroads Magazine. Crossroads, 24 Dec 2010. Web. 18 Apr 2011.

"Tanzania." The World Factbook. Central Intelligence Agency, Apr 2011. Web. 18 Apr 2011.

"School Kids and Street Food."
 Food and Agriculture Organization of the United Nations. UN, Feb 2007. Web. 18 Apr 2011.

Shepard, Jessica. "Don't Look Back." Guardian.co.uk. The Guardian, 10 Mar 2009. Web. 18 Apr 2011.

Photos:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/millenniumpromise/4838096549/

http://www.travelpod.com/photos/2/Tanzania/All%20over.html

i just

I just want to graduate high school.

I don't want to go to college now. 

That can wait.

I just want to work.

I don't want to worry about how much money we have.

Because anything is possible when we have each other.

I just want to start our family.

Because if other people can do it, so can we.

I don't want to save up for a house now.

I'm okay with where we are.

I just want to be here with you.

Because with love, we can do anything.

I promise we can make it work.

4/18 story

I had an awkward kind of day today. I can't really describe it. I have a lot of emotions going on...and I found out something about myself.

See I've been sick for the past week, so I haven't really been on moodle. This morning I woke up and scrambled to get to school today...only to find out that spring break has started. I made it all the way to the school, pulled on the door, and found that it was locked. I called Evett asking
"did spring break start?" she said
"Yea"
"Well thanks for telling me while I'm sitting in front of the school"
"Oh? I though you knew"

I told my mom and she drove me back home. We were both unhappy. I felt like a fool. I should have known, I should have looked online or asked someone...but the "proud" piece of my spirit was angry. I felt like someone should have told me that school was closed, that someone should have kept me in the loop, that my friend's should have had my back.

In a blind fury, I stopped talking to my friends...well that's what I put on my headline. Perry messaged me, and (like a true bitch) took it out on her. That she should've told me, that I was upset, and how I didn't want to talk. She told me that she did tell me, that she did let me know. I felt my pride get knocked down a few pegs as well as grow. At that point I just said that I was stupid and just left it at that.

Mom and I left the house and went on a shopping spree. I couldn't really enjoy myself, because I knew how much of a jerk I was. In that, I also saw some of my own flaws...

I realized that I was too dependent on others, that I never really rely on myself to do things. I realized that I have my father's short fuse and how much trouble it causes. I realized how thin skinned I still am and how much I really hated myself.

Mom bought me new skirts and a dress for school, then we decided to drive to jersey. We saw a car crash on the way there. The Idea of death scared me again...and I started thinking about my dad. I realized that I was not ready to die even though that's way far away...

I went to old navy and bough more clothes. I felt some what better; not mad but I felt the guilt from everything.

We came home, and I started typing this. I really don't know why I made this my daily story. I felt like maybe if I vented in a public place then I wouldn't have anything to hide or something...and If Perry and Evett see this and they get mad then I will take it down, willingly and come up with something else...I guess I just wanted...something...I don't know what I want...

Oh, and by the way, in writing all of this, I forgot to say that I'm still sick with an infection. I have a cough so bad that it keeps me from eating...

I realized how weak I truly am today :/

Spring Break To- Do List

1. Go to KOP (King o Prussia) try on and price prom dresses.
2. Go to Franklin Mills try o a price prom dresses.
3. Walk around down town; try on and price prom dresses.
4. Get hair done in some type of way that'll last a while.
5. Go anywhere else I need to try on and price prom dresses.
6. Set up a time and place for everybody to meet about the house for prom weekend.
7. Read two books and write essays for contest.
8. Find more scholarships.
9. Apply for more scholarships
10. Research for capstone.
11. Work on capstone.
12. Decide on a prom dress.
13. Relax.