Knowing fear within thy inner soul

Knowing Fear within thy inner soul

The section that resonated with me was when Offred lost luke. However, the moment that truly struck with me within my mind was when Offred felt such fear after supposedly losing Luke that she felt not so much loneliness but afraid as if she had lost not just her child but also a part of herself, her very being as if there was nothing left in her world to truly matter to her.

After noticing this It seemed to me that Offerd had lost so much of herself that she felt fear not only that but she felt fear and darkness so much within that moment that she now knew fear itself as if she were looking directly at it as fear too was looking back through the darkest deeps of the world.

“I want to reach up, taste his skin, he makes me hungry. His fingers move, feeling my arm under the nightgown sleeve, as if his hand won’t listen to reason. It’s so good, to be touched by someone, to be felt so greedily, to feel so greedy. Luke, you’d know, you’d understand. It’s you here, in another body. I think of the hanged men, hooked on the Wall. I can hardly stand up. I have to get away, back to the stairs, before I dissolve entirely. His hand’s on my shoulder now, held still, heavy, pressing down on me like warm lead. Is this what I would die for? I’m a coward, I hate the thought of pain.”

Now as to why Offred was feeling this was because she had lost luke the man who she had a romantic interest with, only to then see him in a different body some time after losing him therefore causing her to feel such sadness, shame as well fear because it was as if she feeling thy sting of death within her body.