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My Weekend
I had a very disappointing weekend but at the same time I had a great weekend. Friday night I went to the Roxy with my friend Kristina, her boyfriend Ryan, and his two friends Brian and I forget the other kids name. Now mind you I have a boyfriend and I am strongly against cheating. But on the other hand nothing was going right between Steve and I. I was on the dance floor with Brian and next thing you know we were making out as if I was single. What makes it worse is that it wasn't just that one time, it was all night and all Saturday night too. I didn't regret it and I didn't feel guilty I just was mad at myself for going against my morals. Yesterday I broke up with steve and that was it. I still have a date for prom and now I have made a promise to myself that I would never cheat again.
Why Lie?
Why do people lie to themselves? For example, tonight I went to the Flyers game with my boyfriend and I just posted my status as :had a great night: don't get me wrong I had a great time at the game but I barely talked to steve so I don't get it, why do we lie to ourselves because I'm sure there is many other people that do the same thing.
Never Again
So how are you going to feel when your nephews get to be at my graduation and you sister-in-law gets to see me for my senior prom? How you going to feel when you don't get to say your goodbyes when I leave for bootcamp? How you going to feel when I get married and Joe walks me down the asile? How are you going to feel when I have children and you don't get to see your only grand children that you will ever have? How are you going to feel when you miss out on your grandchildren's lives the same way you did mines? How will your ghost feel when it sees that I'm not at your funeral? I know that you won't feel anything, you never did and you never will. I've felt everything and I've been through it all. But I'm not going to let you bring me down anymore. You've hurt me more then once but I've learned since then to know not to let that happen again.
6 Word Story
Headache equals no work for Bianca!
I hate You
I hate you
You locked me out
I hate you
You made me cry
I hate you
You chose her
I hate You
You forgot me
I hate You
You missed my birthdays
I hate You
I'm growing up
I hate You
I'm graduating
I hate You
I turned 18
I hate You
I drive now
I hate You
I'm still alive
I hate You
You'll always love me
I hate You
I'm nothing to You
I hate You
She's nothing to me
I hate You
You pushed me away
I hate You
I'm going away
I hate You
You'll never see me again
I hate You
You missed out on it all
I hate You
Your loss not mine
I hate You
You locked me out
I hate you
You made me cry
I hate you
You chose her
I hate You
You forgot me
I hate You
You missed my birthdays
I hate You
I'm growing up
I hate You
I'm graduating
I hate You
I turned 18
I hate You
I drive now
I hate You
I'm still alive
I hate You
You'll always love me
I hate You
I'm nothing to You
I hate You
She's nothing to me
I hate You
You pushed me away
I hate You
I'm going away
I hate You
You'll never see me again
I hate You
You missed out on it all
I hate You
Your loss not mine
I hate You
The Light On The Other Side
I think about my life, my future, and when I think about it I feel like I'm traveling through a tunnel staring at the light that I'm leaving behind. As the light gets smaller and fainter I think about going away. People say that I've taken the easy way out of things by joining the service but trust me I haven't. That tunnel is the representation of how for three months I am going to be cut off from the outside world. If I were going to college it would be a roller coaster ride with many twist and turns but on a roller coaster your still on the outside, I'm on a train set in one direction in a tunnel watching the light from the outside get dimmer and dimmer. But at least I know that there is always light on the other side.
At Least That's What She Thought
They are in love. At least thats what she thought. She knew that getting into a relationship wasn't the right thing to do, but he made her feel cared for and he made her feel loved. She started to fall. She found someone that she could relate to in all kinds of ways. He was from the same neighborhood, they grew up together but were never that close but because of this they were able to understand each others past.
She fell for the drunk him. He was funny and talkative, just like her. Danced and had a good time and that s what she loves, anyone that can have a good time. But then when she started to date him she seen the loving and caring sober side of him. She jumped into the relationship. Everything was fine. He loved her and she loved him. But what went wrong? They spent every second that they could together but that wasn't it.
He drinks but isn't that how she started to fall for him? He drink too much. He becomes obnoxious. No one likes him drunk. They can't understand how she can put up with him. She is blinded by love but sooner or later the drinking had to stop. She no longer liked his drunk side.
They spent the weekend down the shore. She was buzzed he was plastered. He didn't want anything to do with her. She was secretly annoyed. She went her way and he went his. She found her ex and he found more beers. The ex brought back old feelings and the beers began to blur right from wrong.
They went to bed together. He was drunk and she was confused. Now she didn't want anything to do with him and he wanted to be part of her world. They didn't talk when they got home and when they did, she confronted him about the drinks.
He denied all of it. He doesn't drink that much. He was able to walk. But was he able to judge what he was doing or how he was acting? She continued to tell him how she felt.
They didn't get far. They haven't talked and nothing is the same. He no longer showed how much he loved her. She never told him how much she cared. She questioned their love. They were in love. At least that's what she thought.
She fell for the drunk him. He was funny and talkative, just like her. Danced and had a good time and that s what she loves, anyone that can have a good time. But then when she started to date him she seen the loving and caring sober side of him. She jumped into the relationship. Everything was fine. He loved her and she loved him. But what went wrong? They spent every second that they could together but that wasn't it.
He drinks but isn't that how she started to fall for him? He drink too much. He becomes obnoxious. No one likes him drunk. They can't understand how she can put up with him. She is blinded by love but sooner or later the drinking had to stop. She no longer liked his drunk side.
They spent the weekend down the shore. She was buzzed he was plastered. He didn't want anything to do with her. She was secretly annoyed. She went her way and he went his. She found her ex and he found more beers. The ex brought back old feelings and the beers began to blur right from wrong.
They went to bed together. He was drunk and she was confused. Now she didn't want anything to do with him and he wanted to be part of her world. They didn't talk when they got home and when they did, she confronted him about the drinks.
He denied all of it. He doesn't drink that much. He was able to walk. But was he able to judge what he was doing or how he was acting? She continued to tell him how she felt.
They didn't get far. They haven't talked and nothing is the same. He no longer showed how much he loved her. She never told him how much she cared. She questioned their love. They were in love. At least that's what she thought.
