Sept. 8.

Hey there babe, hope you had a fantastic nights sleep and have a wonderful day at school. You’ll be on my mind for sure<3

Sept. 9.

I need to be honest. I like you a lot but I’m scared to get too close to you.

Me: You can’t be scared if you don’t take the chance, you’ll never know what you could’ve had.

If we had the time I’d dive in head first.

Me: This fucking sucks, like, I legit want to cry right now. Alright, look. I feel the same way, but I don’t wanna lose you. I wanna get to know you more and I wanna spend time with you before you go away… like I seriously started rethinking me and Tom after we started talking and when I found out you were leaving I got so confused.

You won’t lose me, I promise.

Me: <3.

I want you to be the first person I see when I come back and I wanna talk to you everyday in some form.

Me: I’m a text away baby, you know that. I will never ignore you, &I wanna see you as soon as you come home.

That text makes me want you so bad.

Me: I wanna be with you so bad. Like, what the fuck.

I don’t believe in the whole love at first site thing, but I feel like what we have is kinda close.

Sept.9.

You’re beautiful.

Sept.10.

Maybe if I Google most beautiful girl in the world I can find your picture.

Sept.10.

Love is too soon but I can’t see anyone being any more perfect than you for me.

Sept.10.

Hey there beautiful. Good morning.. hope you had a refreshing nights sleep and I can’t wait to see you tonight <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 text me when you get up.

Sept.11.

I wanted to turn around the whole way home.

Sept.11.

Good morning love! I was so glad I got to spend that time with you. Being with you felt amazing. I thought about you until I fell asleep. Hope you slept well babe <3.

Sept.11.

You’re beautiful! Love you!!

Sept.11.

I wanna tell you I love you as much as I can before I go.

Sept.12.

Me: I love how I looked like shit and you didn’t even care.

I don’t know what you’re talking about, I was just with the most beautiful girl in the world.

Me: Haha, aw (:

I’m home and I’m sorry I like to goof around I wasn’t trying to be too forward by like grabbin ya boobs I was foolin around.

Me: Matt, relax. I’m comfortable around you. I don’t mind it<3 and I know you’re goof, I love it.

I don’t wanna screw anything up with you not the tiniest thing.

Sept.12.

Good morning beautiful <3 I am so sorry I fell asleep on you I was exhausted. I hope you slept well and I hope you enjoyed my company last night <3<3<3 love you.

Sept.12.

I told my sister where you lived and she asked and she said is she ghetto and I said nope. I said I got a new girlfriend and she said who and I said  yeah, she’s a beautiful young lady.

Sept.12.

I loved being able to just sit with you last night.

Sept.12.

I’d rather be with you.

Me: <3

You never say sweet things like that to me.

Me: I do too.. If you’d like I can write you a whole paragraph.

I mean, that would be amazing.

Me: I think you’re amazing. I don’t know what I’m going to do while you’re gone. Your good morning texts make my day go by so much better than they usually would and you’re the sweetest guy that has ever walked into my life. It hasn’t been long since we first met, but you drive me crazy. Your personality is perfect and we look adorable together. I wish I would’ve met you sooner but then again, everything happens for a reason. I love being with you and when you leave I wish you’d come back and stay.

Wow, that gave me butterflies.

Sept.12.

Shawty you da best.

Me: Da best you ever had?

Honestly… yes you’re so perfect. I could just hold you and kiss you all day.

Sept.12.

I can’t believe I’m not gonna get to kiss you tonight. How will I sleep?

Sept. 12.

I care a lot about you and I don’t want anything to go wrong.

Sept. 12.

You’re the first girl I’ve known who I can act so comfortable around. I love you, sleep tight, and I’ll talk to you in the morning.

Dear Bianca,

There have been a lot of things going through my mind lately about you going into the military. Please don’t think that I am mad at you or I don’t want to support you, because I do. I admire you so much for having the guts and the bravery to enroll yourself into that line of duty. It takes a certain kind of person to be able to stand up in front of their country and place their life on the line to protect us.

You are my best friend here in school and I wouldn’t trade that for the world. When we get mad at each other, it’s a pain in the ass. As annoying as it is sometimes to come in 7:50 in the morning and listen to you yell and scream about the crack whore on the El who wanted to fight you, I enjoy it because I know there is no one else like you. There is no one else that I can experience that with and I love you for that.  You just have to understand where I am coming from.

It’s a lot to take in, watching your best friend stress over filling out her forms to place herself in the military. You WILL be out there fighting, you WILL be out there risking your life, and frankly, that scares the shit out of me. I don’t want to you lose you, I never do, and you have to understand where your sister and I are coming from. I wish I didn’t have to talk to you about this, which is partially the reason I am writing you this letter because if I do try and tell you this in person, I will probably start crying.

Mrs. Hull approached me this morning because she feels like none of your friends are supporting you and I want you to know that I am by your side 100%, as crazy as your ideas and views may be, I will always be there for you. It took 4 years to fully understand you and I am happy that I do. I am so proud of you and your choices, please don’t ever think that I am not going to be by your side. I love you so much, like I said, you’re my best friend and one of the only people that I can trust these days. I want you to continue on with this because I know how dedicated you are to doing this and I wish I had your bravery.

Just be careful and always remember that everyone loves you. If you ever need anyone to talk to, you know I am here, by your side, every day, 24/7, 100%.

(:

I LOVE YOU<3.

Love,

Misssy.

This is an original song I wrote:

I’m so lost in this place, caught in between what’s real and what’s fake. Can’t face reality it’s killing me inside, nothing left for me to do but say I tried. Oh why, can’t I?

I sit and wonder what to do when all I think about is you, I think you’ve got my mind made up.

I wish you’d show me something new after what you’ve put me through, I never knew this would be so tough.

Here’s where the block sets in, my stomach drops, my head is spinning, and you’re nowhere to be found.  

I’m getting dizzy, tired of thinking, sick of looking up and down, you got me runnin’ round and round.

And it’s so frustrating how you keep me waitin’ I don’t know what else to say, the same old shit just another day and it’s so confusing how you keep on using me, I’m waisting away.

I sit and wonder what to do when all I think about is you, I think you’ve got my mind made up.

I wish you’d show me something new after what you’ve put me through, I never knew this would be so tough.