Untitled, Unfinished

His means of motivation aren't very motivating to me
In fact they're
quite the contrary of his fantasy popular belief
They are self esteem killing
They are doubts drilling
disquiet thoughts into the already damaged 
sectors of my mind set aside soly for self acceptance
See, I secretly already have trouble accepting the essence of me
and saying things that devalue me
only add to my dislike of me
dis love of me
my disdain of me
To the point where me is dis-subsist-ing