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Aidan Williams Capstone

Posted by Aidan Williams in Capstone · Ames · Wed on Friday, May 11, 2018 at 9:41 am
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For my Capstone project, I decided to write a short album. I tried to write one song each month which tied into my experience throughout senior year and my High School experience in general. It was fun to work on, and I’m proud of the final product.

I wrote a whole bunch of music, but, as time went on, I tried to slim it down to the seven songs I felt were best suited to the project. I spent a lot of time writing, bits and pieces here and there, and towards the end I started to flesh out a lot of the parts I had written, and trimming many bits I didn’t think made sense. I spent a lot of time recording it through the equipment I have at home in GarageBand. It took a while, but I feel like the recordings themselves turned out well.

The songs are on a broad range of topics, from my experiences throughout my time at SLA, both in school and out, people I’ve met, things I’ve learned, and more. For better or worse, I’ve tried to condense my time here as much as possible.

I’ve posted the music online publicly, and I’m attaching a link to this post. Check it out if you want to.


https://soundcloud.com/aidan-williams-262842405/sets/capstone

Pattinson, Pat. (2011). Songwriting Without Boundaries. Writer’s Digest Books.

This book was gifted to me, and it has lots of information on lyric writing in music. I figured it would be a great source for my capstone, as I am going to be doing a lot of work on writing lyrics. I probably won’t read all of it, but the information in it is relevant and I think it will be very useful as I continue my work for the project. Through exercises and practice, this book presents lots of information and assistance which I am excited to discover and use. I don’t know what else to say about it, it just seems like a great source.


“How to Write a Song | 10 Songwriting Tips from the Pros.” Ditto Music Promotion, 10 Nov. 2016, www.dittomusic.com/blog/how-to-write-a-song-10-tips-on-how-to-boost-your-creative-side-when-writing-songs.

I have been writing songs for a few years now, but there is always more to learn. This source has several tips from professional musicians that I think I will find useful. There is always more to be learned, and more that can be done when it comes to songwriting, and I think just having an abundance of sources like this one with lots of small tips and tricks will help me a lot moving forward with this project. While not all the tips might be useful, I think that it is still good to have this information, and, again, just the abundance of tips is great to have.


Seydel, Rory. “10 Ridiculous Songwriting Tips That Actually Work.” LANDR Blog, 26 Jan. 2018, blog.landr.com/10-songwriting-techniques/.

The word “ridiculous” is always an eye-catcher, so when I saw this website, I knew I had to take a look. I am choosing to use this source as yet another small set of tips, “ridiculous” tips, if you will, and, again, having that abundance of information is something that I think I’ll appreciate in the long run. It is written by a musician, which also helps, as it seems to be all from experience. “Ridiculous” might be an overstatement, but I’m excited to use this advice as I move forward with completing my project.


Rubright, Nicholas. “25 musicians share their best songwriting tips, techniques, ideas, and exercises.” Dozmia Blog, blog.dozmia.com/songwriting-tips-techniques-ideas-exercises/.

This is like my second source, but more in depth. I am choosing to use it because, while it is still a set of tips and tricks, it seems much more in depth, and, while I haven’t taken time to read it carefully, I think that there is a whole lot to unpack from this. I am excited to delve into it, and I think that it will work wonders as I move forward on my project. Also, yet again, the tips and tricks are from accomplished musicians. I haven’t heard of all of them, so they might not be as accomplished as the website claims, but it should be useful nonetheless.


“Guitar Chord Chart.” TrueFire, truefire.com/guitar-chord-charts/.

One thing I often have trouble with as a songwriter is picking chords. That’s why I think that having a chart with many chords on it will be very helpful moving forward with the project. It will give me a wealth of new sounds and progressions to explore, and I think that having the information should make my project much more interesting by the end. I’m surprised I haven’t tried to find or use one of these before. It seems very comprehensive as well, and, with some practice, I think that it will be ‘instrumental’ to the completion of the project.

LutzAcademy. “How to Build Chord Progressions on Guitar.” YouTube, YouTube, 22 Dec. 2016, www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fC3dZRu7Z0.

Like I said before, picking chords and writing chord progressions is one of my greatest weaknesses when it comes to music. So, I am picking this source to try to get better at creating chord progressions. Combined with the chord chart, I should now have more than enough information and expertise to build my very own chord progressions for the project. Also, the video is only seventeen minutes long, so the information should be condensed and easily picked up. I’m excited to use this source as I move forward with completing my project. It doesn’t have a lot of views, but it seems like it is exactly what I need.


seandaniel23. “Building Chords, Easy Music Theory.” YouTube, YouTube, 26 Aug. 2012, www.youtube.com/watch?v=__VtlxQZhXs.

Like I always say, redundancy is the key to success. I’m assuming that this video will be similar to the last one, but the differences between them should help a lot with the process. Information that is in both of them will be corroborated, while information that differs between the two will give me the chance to either use information from both, pick and choose from the two videos, or be able to tell what is more subjective and might not be necessary for my progressions. Doubling up on types of sources I think will really help me moving forward with the project.


Matla, Sam. “The Ultimate Guide to Writing Better and More Memorable Melodies.” EDMProd, 10 Jan. 2017, www.edmprod.com/ultimate-melody-guide/.

I chose this source because, while melody writing isn’t something I usually have trouble with, I think that just having the information will be incredibly beneficial to me. As melodies are usually the guiding force behind a song, it is important to create the best possible melodies when writing music. Having some outside influence and tips for writing melodies will be useful, as, really, one can only get better at stuff like this. I’m excited to learn new things about melody writing, as it isn’t something I’ve sought help for in the past. I think that it will be incredibly useful to my project as I continue to work on it.


Zambonini, Dan. “A Beginners guide to mixing in GarageBand.” New Titles, 24 July 2014, archive.oreilly.com/pub/post/a_beginners_guide_to_mixing_in.html.

While I have used trial and error in the past to mix music with GarageBand, which is the platform I plan on using for recording, I have never actually gone in depth and tried to learn more about the platform itself. I am excited to get in deep with the platform and practice mixing and mastering my music, and making it sound as good as I can. I’ve been using GarageBand for a long time, so I’m excited to learn more about it, as recording and mixing music is something that I thoroughly enjoy. This is definitely a source that will be important to my project.


Molenda, Michael. “10 Ways To More Professional GarageBand Mixes.” EMusician, 1 Aug. 2009, www.emusician.com/gear/10-ways-to-more-professional-garageband-mixes.

I am choosing this source because, like I said before, redundancy is important. I am going to be doing a lot of mixing, and I would like to get as good as I can at mixing in GarageBand. This isn’t necessarily a very in depth source, but the information in it is useful, and should help me a lot. I would like as much information as possible when it comes to my mixing in Garageband, and I’m excited to improve my skills. Even just these few tips seem incredibly useful, and I’m excited to put them to work while I work on this project.

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Film Reviews

Posted by Aidan Williams in Intersectional Feminism · Menasion · e1 Band on Sunday, April 8, 2018 at 7:51 pm

No Country For Old Men


I loved No Country For Old Men. It was tense, well-written, the performances were phenomenal. There was nothing about the movie I can think of which didn’t floor me. However, after looking at the movie in relation to the Bechdel (And Mako Mori) Tests, I found that it definitely fell short.

I’ll start with the Mako Mori test, because holding the Mako Mori test to this movie is a joke. There are a small handful of women in the movie, most of them unnamed, who serve solely as plot devices for the leading roles, all of which are male. Carla Jean, the wife of Llewelyn Moss, one of the leads, barely speaks throughout the movie, presenting a shallow, very two-dimensional character. And she’s the closest to a strong female character in the whole movie. So, the Mako Mori Test? Hard fail.

As for the Bechdel Test: Initially, I assumed it failed hard as well. However, after doing some research, I found there was a scene in which Carla Jean speaks to her mother about medication. It’s barely a conversation, and there is also some contention as to whether or not it passes the first part of the Bechdel Test: There being two named female characters. In the translation from Cormac Mccarthy’s novel of the same name, a few characters were watered down to condense it to a film format. Carla Jean’s mother, Agnes Kracik, who was named in the novel, was never referred to in the movie with a name, save for a split-second scene in which her name is written. The movie technically passes the test, but so slightly that a fail is entirely debateable.

Ultimately, it’s clearly not the type of movie the creators of the Bechdel Test had in mind as an ideal. It is a story by men, about men, for men, and the fact that the movie had to be scoured for a pass makes it questionable. I loved the movie, but it’s definitely not a feminist piece.


The R/Niceguy Test

A Niceguy (Or Niceguy™) is a term for men who claim to be nice, and believe that being nice entitles them to women. Popularized by the reddit.com subreddit, r/NiceGuys, these men will often become abruptly hostile when rejected or ignored, proving that, despite the term, they are not really nice guys.

A common theme among said Niceguys, is the idea that they would be better partners to people they are romantically, or sexually, interested in than their current partners. Since I found this subreddit, I’ve been looking closer at different forms of media, and I’ve found a striking number of books, movies, songs, shows, etc. which have an empathized character who believes that they are the right choice for someone, better than others. So I came up with the R/Niceguy test.

A media piece fails the test if any of the following happen:

  • A protagonist is persistently interested in someone either uninvolved or uninterested.

  • A protagonist openly resents another character for not being romantically or sexually interested in them.

  • A character openly resents the significant other of a character they are romantically or sexually interested in.

  • A character leaves their significant other for the protagonist.

The last rule might seem a little too intense. We all know the story where the two leads are truly made for each other, but each tied down by their own commitments. They struggle to be with one another, struggling with both their surroundings and themselves, but, ultimately, make the right choice in the end, and walk, hand in hand, into the sunset. We all know this story. And that’s the problem.

This teaches people that they should pursue people, be persistent, don’t take ‘no’ for an answer, because, ultimately, the people they like will come around and make the ‘right’ choice. This leads to characteristic Niceguy behavior. Which leads to much worse things. So, I decided to hold one of my favorite movies to this standard: Fight Club.


Fight Club

Once again, a movie based on a book. And once again, I loved this movie. I’ve always struggled with how to perceive this movie from a gender-based perspective: The movie delves heavily into topics of masculinity, misogyny, gender roles in society, and there is great contention as to what is satire and what is not. The unnamed protagonist lives a boring, corporate life. He spends his time working, or furnishing his apartment, which he, himself, admits is worthless. He befriends a man named Tyler Durden, who lives an entirely opposite life from the narrator: Tyler rejects capitalism. He rejects what he perceives as the societal emasculation and castration of men, as society drifts further and further from hunter-gatherer societies. The movie explores what it means to be a man, settling on some very skewed beliefs and practices: One being the titular Fight Club, a club for men only where they beat each other senseless just to feel like men. The movie never really expresses which form of existence is better, and the story has inspired many young boys to delve into very toxic masculinity. However, that’s a different debate. I want to talk about Marla Singer, and her love triangle with the Narrator and Tyler Durden.

The narrator first meets Marla Singer in a support group for people with testicular cancer. A very fitting setting given the material. Neither the Narrator nor Marla have testicular cancer, but they both find thrill in attending the support groups. They talk briefly about why they attend support groups for diseases they don’t have, exchange numbers, and don’t see each other for a long time. Then, the Narrator meets Tyler Durden.

Marla calls the Narrator further into the story, asking to see him, and the Narrator is dismissive. Not wanting to be involved in her life, he decides not to see her, and leaves, but finds out later that Tyler Durden picked up the phone which he had left unhooked, and went to see her instead. They begin to develop a sexual relationship, which the Narrator quickly becomes jealous of. While it is unclear whether the Narrator is jealous of Tyler for his relationship or of Marla for Tyler’s attention, the Narrator is clearly resenting another character’s significant other.

I’d like to talk about the plot twist of the movie, so this is a spoiler warning.


It is revealed at the end of the story that Tyler Durden and the Narrator were the same person the whole time. This complicates the love triangle a bit, being that the Narrator resents himself for being the significant other of the person he is interested in, or maybe resents Marla for being the significant other of himself. Ultimately, however, the story presents the Narrator and Tyler durden as two seperate people, so I’m inclined to count it as a fail, because the message is still there.


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Tie Your Tubes

Posted by Aidan Williams in Intersectional Feminism · Menasion · e1 Band on Monday, January 15, 2018 at 2:26 pm
​For my Erasing Erasure project, I wrote a song about forced sterilization in Puerto Rico from the early-to-mid 1900s.

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1UUTS6CRgGc2KJQf0mlH-fI7Pz8FA8jFW
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Advanced Essay #4: The Inevitability of Conflict

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 3 · Block/Franz/Taylor-Baranik · C Band on Thursday, March 23, 2017 at 9:05 am
My goal with this essay was to decide whether or not war could be avoided. Looking throughout history at all sorts of different conflicts, I was able to find common ground between most historical wars, and I came to the conclusion that history will continue to repeat itself. War is inevitable.
While I don't think it is my best work, I am proud of the work I did, and for the most part, I completed all components of the piece to the best of my ability. The rough draft was a little short, but other than that, I completed all assignments, and wrote the paper.
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“I am by nature warlike. To attack is among my instincts,” Said Friedrich Nietzsche. Combat has been a staple throughout human history in many different forms. From the earliest raids between groups of hunter-gatherers, to modern occupation, conflict, and everything in between. Whether we are playing football with friends, or piloting drones gunning down foreigners, does warlike nature apply only to Nietzsche? Or are we all composed of the same aggressive building blocks?

In ancient hunter-gatherer societies, humans lived in groups or tribes. Communities were very closely knit, prompting a very us-vs.-them mentality to rise through evolution. Those ancient people looked after their own. However, some groups would attack others for resources, as sometimes it was the easier way to find food. These raids were very different from the wars of today: Small groups of warriors would attack when they were unsuspected, killing other communities and taking what they needed. For a long time, this was the primary form of conflict.

However, as time went on, raids grew more elaborate, and tribes, based in raiding began to excel. Some even speculate that agriculture began, in part, due to the dangers of raids. One of the best defenses against a raid is to gather people together in a group. Along with the resource benefits of agricultural settlements, this brought in a new age of living.

Fast forward thousands of years. Politics have evolved with the human race, and oligarchic societies have become the norm. Democratic or otherwise, a small group sets laws to be followed by the populace, and countries gained individual power. This means war. War evolved, becoming increasingly politically driven, and so politics became the second reason for war.

The era of colonialism is a poster child for resource wars. Small countries, such as England and Portugal, who possessed advanced technologies, especially concerning weaponry, began to reach outward, conquering surrounding countries, and draining them of resources. Whether food, materials, or even humans, colonialism was a resource war on a massive scale.

On the other hand, looking at a revolution, such as the American Revolution, which came about primarily due to the idea of ‘taxation without representation,’ it is clear that most revolutions are almost entirely politically driven. As people rise against a political regime, conflict becomes inevitable. Force is inevitable. Politics rose from disagreement, as did conflict. While politics were most likely introduced as an alternative to fighting, they have not only coexisted, but have become intertwined.

Scilla Elworthy, founder of the Oxford Research Group whose goal was to avoid conflict through dialogue in the case of nuclear warfare, did her best to create a conflict-free world. Elworthy realized that at the base of all political warfare is anger. In her words, “Wherever there is injustice, there is anger. But anger is like gasoline, and if you spray it around, and someone lights a match, you’ve got an inferno.” Citizens often find themselves becoming frustrated with an oligarchy. Frustration leads to anger, and all it takes is a match to set ablaze the flame of war.

Yet, many hold onto anger. It provides feeling, purpose, and blame. Anger turns to rage, and the inferno burns brighter. As long as humans embrace the anger they feel, civilization will never reach a point of nonviolence. No nation can ever make all of its citizens happy, and the fire will continue to rise. So long as we hold on to anger, violence will be inevitable, and war will carry on, just as it has throughout history.

Bibliography


Green, John. "War & Human Nature: Crash Course World History 204." YouTube. YouTube, 31 July 2014. Web. 14 Mar. 2017.


Green, John. "War and Civilization: Crash Course World History 205." YouTube. YouTube, 09 Aug. 2014. Web. 14 Mar. 2017.


Elworthy, Scilla. "Fighting with Nonviolence." Scilla Elworthy: Fighting with Nonviolence | TED Talk | TED.com. Ted Talks, 2012. Web. 14 Mar. 2017.


Icrcfilms. "Rules of War (in a Nutshell)." YouTube. YouTube, 19 Aug. 2014. Web. 14 Mar. 2017.


"January 31, 2003 ~ Interview: Chris Hedges." PBS. Public Broadcasting Service, 10 May 2013. Web. 14 Mar. 2017.

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Painful Songwriting With Gabe Leeds

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 3 · Block/Franz/Taylor-Baranik · C Band on Friday, February 17, 2017 at 9:45 am
Intro:
Gabe Leeds is one of the best songwriters I know, and I wanted to sit down with him and get his perspective on the process of writing and playing music. I didn't necessarily have a specific goal in mind going into the interview, but I found that he really didn't enjoy the process, and I thought that was really interesting. I wanted to illustrate the disconnect between the writer and the listener when it comes to music, and Gabe's perspective on the idea was very interesting.

​https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B5trlcDi3JAWV3o2d2ZScW5ucEk
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The Ship of Theseus

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 3 · Block/Franz/Taylor-Baranik · C Band on Thursday, January 19, 2017 at 8:50 am
Introduction:
My goal for this paper was to explore the idea of self and existence, and to try to define the conditions of the preservation and annihilation of a life. As I wrote the paper, I found that there was no answer to any of the questions that I had. Regardless of what I believe personally, there is no way for me to prove any side to the argument aside from stating my point of view, so I chose to illustrate different sides of the issue of existence rather than clearly argue one side or another. It is up to the reader to decide how they define their existence. My goal was to give the reader options.

Essay:

There is no way to prove that the world was not created yesterday. Like a dream, we could have memories of things that did not happen: Information filling in the blanks of our non-existence. Imagine a divine, omnipotent, omniscient creator, such as God. Imagine the creator placing the Earth, and all its inhabitants, into existence just as they are now. The creator could conjure humans with memories of the past; things that never happened, but that each individual can remember. Phantom memories: Things they have learned, people they have met, experiences they have had, all of it untrue. Yet, the argument could be made that because that people have perceived these things, they are just as real.

Consider the idea that you were created as such yesterday. All of your memories from before you woke yesterday never happened, and, before your eyes opened, you did not exist. Can you prove that is not true? Do you believe it isn’t true? One could argue that who we are is a collection of our past experiences. However, this isn’t quite true. We are shaped by the memories of our past experiences. What we remember shapes who we are. We are not constantly re-learning things, we remember learning things, and our memories are often warped. We are constructed of memories and perceptions, true or false.

“Schizophrenics suffering from “thought insertion” and “alien voices” delusions report that they are not in control of their thoughts. Indeed, they often envisage a particular individual who, they claim, is doing the thinking for them, or implants thoughts in their mind.” Explains Uriah Kriegel, of the Internet Encyclopedia of Philosophy. This perceived construction could be an example of created thoughts and memories, or even an artificial self. Many would disagree, stating that the thoughts come from within them, whether or not they perceive it that way. However, what happens when they lose that “particular individual,” developing their ideas and their selves independent of the entity they believed controlled them? Would they still be themselves? Many would be inclined to say yes, of course they would be themselves, but it begs a deeper question of which parts of them are them, and which parts of them can be replaced or removed before they become a new entity.

This idea has been explored through the story of The Ship of Theseus, a paradoxical thought experiment. Theseus, an ancient Greek king, thought to have founded the city of Athens, fought many naval battles on his ship. As a tribute to him, the people of Athens kept his ship on the water as a symbol. However, as the wood of the ship began to deteriorate, planks were replaced one by one, until all the wood had been replaced, and the ship had been entirely reconstructed. There is much debate as to what defines the Ship of Theseus as being the same ship, whether the ship’s physical form is what causes it to be what it is, or if there is some incorporeal quality which gives it the title of “The Ship of Theseus,” or if it is solely human perception that gives it the qualities of the Ship of Theseus, and no ship is the Ship of Theseus absent the perception of a sentient mind.

“[You’ve] replaced your outer layer of skin hundreds of times… Your red blood cells only live for about 4 months before they’re cycled out… Even your skeleton is constantly being remodeled… Just like The Doctor, or the Ship of Theseus, you’re constantly being replaced by new physical versions of yourself.” Hank Green of Crash Course Philosophy believes. It takes approximately seven years before all the cells in one’s body have been replaced, and no part of that person is the same. However, that person would most likely continue to think of themselves as themselves, and that person’s stream of consciousness and perception is the same as it was seven years prior. The individual holds all the same memories, with seven years of new ones, so this must be the same person.

Ultimately, the only thing that makes us us is the way we, and others, perceive ourselves. We perceive ourselves however we do. Some believe that the Ship of Theseus has some inherent, incorporeal quality that makes it the Ship of Theseus, and they would believe that the same is true for themselves, and their own physical beings. Others would believe that there is nothing that inherently makes us us, that we are an amalgam of our perceptions and experiences, and that there is ultimately no true self. With no way to determine the truth of anything outside of one’s head, all anyone can do is be the person they see as themselves, and carry on existing.







Works Cited:


Crashcourse. "Personal Identity: Crash Course Philosophy #19." YouTube. YouTube, 27 June 2016. Web. 18 Jan. 2017.


WirelessPhilosophy. "PHILOSOPHY - Mind: Personal Identity (The Narrative Self) [HD]."YouTube. YouTube, 05 Feb. 2016. Web. 18 Jan. 2017.


Gilkey, Charlie. "The Ship of Theseus and Personal Identity." Productive Flourishing. N.p., 09 May 2008. Web. 18 Jan. 2017.

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Advanced Essay 2: No Fighting, No Biting.

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 3 · Block/Franz/Taylor-Baranik · C Band on Thursday, November 3, 2016 at 9:03 am
My goal for this essay was to make a statement on the ways we are told to interact with each other, and the ways we are told not to.​ I'm proud of the descriptive scene, though I was told by multiple people that a few parts of my essay connected awkwardly. In the future, I'll work on having better transitions.



All my life, I’d been told not to fight. Not to hit, kick, punch, pinch, bite. Not to wrestle, not to box. Playing football, I was instructed to tap people on both shoulders. That’s how the game worked. A polite word: “Excuse me, sir.” “I apologize, but I can’t let you carry the ball any further.” That was the literacy of my life. I used my words, and not my fists. A bonafide zen master: Champion of my own emotions.

Yet, in that moment, I wondered how I’d hit that point, standing on the beach, my feet carved up, bleeding into the sand. The smell of sweat, sea, and a tinge of iron. A packing sensation in my chest every so often, as one of his fists would connect. Or my arm. My stomach. Everything moving a little too quickly, as we ran around each other. My jaw bruised, my cheeks cut from the inside. I was alive.

Was I a failure? A manic mass of testosterone? With these questions running around my head, we walked back towards the street, our breath ragged, cigarettes hanging from our lips. The strangest serenity set over me, and very suddenly, I realized that I’d been lied to all my life; that maybe there was a place for fighting.

How do I define literacy? I define literacy as the way we interact with one another, and it’s shrinking. We’ve become accustomed to the ways that those in charge have restricted our interactions, and told us the way we should behave. We’ve conceded to the ways that people tell us to interact, and, like fighting, the ways that many consider to be unhealthy, and uncultured.

Literacy has become uniform, as we coddle ourselves from reality. Many people speak about individuality, but expect all people to think the same things. We have no room for opinion anymore, and, in the words of Mike Rose, “The more completely they accept the passive role imposed on them, the more they tend simply to adapt to the world as it is.” If a large enough majority decides that, “the pen is mightier than the sword,” then it must be true, for the powers-that-be have spoken!

I’d say ‘the sword’ has always spoken louder to me. Whether it’s a fist to the face, or an arm around my neck, a bear hug or a soft touch, the ambiguity of physicality leaves so much room for meaning. Yet, for reasons of safety and what we consider to be uniform comfort, we’ve choked it. We’ve organized competition to reduce the number of casualties. Soccer, tennis, baseball. Even football, where we strap six inch layers of padding to ourselves before we charge at each other head-first. Or, even worse, when we stick flags to ourselves. All you have to do is run. All you have to do is carry a ball.

Many people in Horsham Clinic were there for what people had labeled as 'unreasonable aggression,' which usually translated to getting into a fight. Almost as if fighting was an illness that could be cured with a strict regimen of xanax and adderall.

We learn complacency. We learn to read, and write, and do basic math. We learn to sit down and shut up. Mike Rose, in his article, I Just Want to be Average, illustrates the unwritten rules of being human in the 21st century.

“the teacher teaches and the students are taught;

the teacher knows everything and the students know nothing;

the teacher disciplines and the students are disciplined;

the teacher chooses and enforces his choice, and the students comply;

the teacher chooses the program content, and the students adapt to it;

the teacher is the Subject of the learning process, while the pupils are mere objects.”

I know nothing. I’ve been disciplined. I’ve complied. I’ve been an object. Everyone lives in an illusion of freedom, in blissful ignorance of the uniform grip that we’ve placed on one another, a grip that, as Mike Rose says, is "necrophilic; nourished by a love of death, not life.” We don't value one another's existence, we value the uniformity and compliance. Things I would say are akin to the death of a person.

Ultimately, the ways we interact with each other are different for every relationship. Through hugs, fights, conversations, and everything in between, I have learned to navigate through the ever-changing definition of literacy, and I have learned the things that work for me through experience. The world is ever-changing, and so are we. Literacy is not uniform. Neither are we.
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To Count the Grass - EP

Posted by Aidan Williams in Creative Writing · Giknis · x2 Band on Saturday, October 29, 2016 at 11:09 am
http://awilliams639.wixsite.com/aidanzedd

Welcome to my website! For my project, I wrote, recorded, and produced two original songs. MP3s and lyrics are on the website!​ I was inspired by Iron and Wine and Foster the People. Thank you, and hope you all enjoy.
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Horsham Clinic

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 3 · Block/Franz/Taylor-Baranik · C Band on Sunday, October 16, 2016 at 8:27 pm

Five days in and all I wanted was a cigarette. From tense visits with my family, to talk about drugs and suicide. The tense moment before a fight breaks out. The steady flow of patients. The fifteen minutes between the constant nightly check-ins: The loud creak of the door. Footsteps. A light in my face, checking for breaths. One, two, and gone. I had fifteen minutes to fall asleep before it happened again. I was exhausted. Six days in without music. Seven days away from my friends. Eight days in and they still wouldn’t tell me if and when I was leaving.

I didn’t leave Horsham for twelve days. I hated it. It was easily one of the most miserable experiences I’ve ever had. Horsham was cramped, understaffed, low budget, and yet, as my parents assured me, it was the best in the area. I finally was released, having learned nothing, having been put on meds that made me miserable, and leaving my family with almost no money. However, I did take away an experience from it that not many people have: Sitting in a room full of people who have all truly hit rock bottom.

The patients were split almost down the middle between people with aggression issues, and people with depressive issues, among other, more specific mental illnesses. Many were like me, having made attempts on their life. The rest were kids who had gotten into serious fights with their friends and family. There were kids with Obsessive Compulsive Disorders that caused their minds to construct memories. Some kids with severe Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder would become catatonic at any loud noise. Others starved themselves. Some heard voices.

Turns out no one really understands this stuff. There’s no off switch. I’ve talked to plenty of people about medication and therapy, and it seems to me that the people who advocate them the most are the people who haven’t experienced either. I have rarely talked to a person who genuinely thought that their antidepressants helped them. I remember being miserable on all medications that I tried. I never felt that therapy was incredibly helpful either.

It seems that these kids were getting swept under the rug. Horsham was grotty, gross, unsafe in certain parts. The food was mediocre at best, and there was very little space. Horsham Clinic is a crisis center, meaning that the average stay is three days to a week. The goal is to get most people stabilized before they can be either sent back into the world, or moved to another facility; swept under an even bigger rug.

There were special needs kids who had been in the facility for months, while the management desperately tried to figure them out. Attempt after attempt was made before finally having them transferred to a long-term facility: The equivalent of a mental asylum. The saddest part? It would be permanent. This is the system. If they can’t fix you, they’ll put you away. These are the people who are deemed “unsafe.” Bouncing from place to place between each failed attempt on their life. Uprooted and tossed around. Why? It’s easier to put them away than to address the issue. Moving kids to “long-term clinics” for eating disorders, more like prisons than hospitals. Doors that lock from the outside. Sedative injections. Straight jackets. It’s still hard for me to believe that these things are still in use.

I wonder, though, is there a way to truly fix it? Is the system the only system we have? I don’t know. Therapy and medication can help to a degree, but sometimes there’s really not much one can do to help. There are many bad reviews of Horsham Clinic on the internet, but I have yet to see anyone offer a solution. It begs the question: Is it better to lock these kids up to stop them from killing themselves?

I found rock bottom to be a strangely serene experience. Little by little I became separate from myself, in some sort of existential crisis. Embracing nihilism. I believe I see the world for what it truly is: Nothing. There is nothing to anything. We seek meaning and purpose in a universe completely indifferent to our existence. Is there any purpose in “saving” the people who just want their lives to be over? Do any of us truly understand what would be “best” for them? Why do we get to decide when to pull the plug? What’s the point of this terrible system?
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Survival of the Fittest

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 2 - Pahomov - A on Wednesday, April 6, 2016 at 8:30 am
Aidan Williams

There is no such thing as objective responsibility. Despite our social biology, the very nature of our existence leads us only to pursue things that directly affect us in positive ways. Though we live in an illusion of empathy and selflessness, there is no such thing as a truly selfless action. Every action we take is entirely self-serving in some form or another, and the only responsibilities the “strong” have to take care of the “weak” are those that we give ourselves in a self-absorbed sense of superiority.

This becomes apparent in Lord of the Flies, by William Golding, as they introduce the character Piggy. Piggy is a fat, asthmatic boy, who can barely see without his glasses. Ultimately, in a survival setting, he is a detriment to the boys survival. As he says, “My Auntie told me not to run… on account of my asthma.” However, he has one thing that the boys need: His glasses. This gives the boys a reason to take care of him, and they do. They keep him alive for a long time. However, as soon as he outlives his usefulness, they take his glasses, and they kill him.

So, what is responsibility? Well, taking a step back, this ultimately boils down to subjectivity versus objectivity. As conscious creatures, humans do not live in an objective world. Conscious beings see the world through the senses, and see the world through their own perceptions, and cannot see the objective world. Now, what does this mean for responsibility? Well, this means that responsibilities exist only as the ones created by living, sentient beings. So, what responsibility do the strong have to take care of the weak? Well, the strong only have the responsibility that they create for themselves. However, sometimes this paves the way for people to pretend to create their own responsibilities as a way to mask an ulterior motive.

This was seemingly the case in the USA’s invasion of afghanistan following the September 11th attacks. By the end of September, 2001, the Bush Administration had its troops on the offensive in the Middle East. Only a few months had passed before President George W. Bush said the following in the State of the Union: “In four short months, our nation has… captured, arrested, and rid the world of thousands of terrorists, destroyed Afghanistan’s terrorist training camps, saved people from starvation, and freed a country from brutal oppression.” Saved people from starvation. These were the things he was proud of accomplishing in the four months that United States troops occupied Afghanistan. Now, this seems good, but, ultimately, it was not the purpose of the invasion.

The occupation was a direct response to the attacks on September 11th. However, people in Afghanistan were suffering starvation and brutal oppression before the invasion and the attacks. Helping the people was not the intention of the administration. It was not the intention of the troops deployed. It seems that the people helped by the troops were simply in the right place at the right time, and it gave Bush a chance to pat himself on the back for his efforts helping the ‘weak.’ The invasion came from a place of vengeance, and while it helped many people, it was entirely coincidental, and did not reflect the United State’s efforts to end world hunger.

Imagine Piggy is Afghanistan, and the rest of the boys are the Bush Administration. The boys could have said that they take care of Piggy because they have a responsibility to. Being stuck on the island, they could have said that they have a responsibility to take care of their own, and that since Piggy was their friend, they were responsible for his wellbeing. However, this wasn’t true. They kept Piggy alive because his glasses were the boys’ only way of starting a fire. His glasses kept him alive for a long time. However, as the boys gave in to their reality, and fell farther away from civilization, realizing that they weren’t actually responsible for Piggy, they realized that they could steal Piggy’s glasses, and then, having done so, they killed him, as they no longer needed him. Just as boys killed Piggy as soon as they didn’t need him, the United States killed many civilians in the Middle East once they had gotten recognition for helping them.

While there is a fair bit of controversy surrounding this issue, there is a fair amount of evidence to back up the claims that United States soldiers killed Iraqi civilians. One incident, known as the Al Ishaqi Massacre, was the accused deliberate murder of eleven Iraqi civilians, before blowing up their home. While it was written off by the Pentagon as an action against Al Qaeda militants, five out of the eleven people were children, the youngest of whom was said to be only five months old. However, these were not the stories we were told. Rather, we were told about the soldier’s heroic acts helping and saving civilians, by none other than President Bush in the State of the Union.

Our society speaks a great deal about responsibilities, and in America, being a world superpower, many speak about helping the third world quite a bit as well. However, it seems that people rarely practice what they preach, just like many who talk about their objective responsibilities. Ultimately, humans are not required by any law of nature to do anything. They can create their own responsibilities, but can also do things for other people because they want to, or because others want them to, without locking themselves into objectivity.


Works Cited:


Golding, William. Lord of the Flies

New York. Penguin, 2003


"President Delivers State of the Union Address." President Delivers State of the Union Address. N.p., n.d. Web. 05 Apr. 2016.


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ILP - Semester 2

Posted by Aidan Williams in Advisory Sophomore - Ames - adv on Monday, March 28, 2016 at 3:26 pm
Over this past couple months, I have been writing a lot of music, and have learned the ins and outs of writing, recording, and other aspects of professional music. I feel as though my musical professionality has been improved by a lot through this work. I've learned a lot.
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Soaring

Posted by Aidan Williams in English 2 - Pahomov - A on Monday, November 23, 2015 at 7:14 am

Yeah, the needle hurts a bit. You’ll get used to it. Don’t worry about it, it’s your first time. Here, let me do it for you. Bite down on the belt, okay? Sweet. You got it. Alright, close your eyes. And, there. You’re done. Does it feel like you’re flying? That’s what it felt like for me. Yeah, don’t worry about it. Just relax. Flow with it.

I barely remember my first time. It was pretty great, though. I was fucking soaring. Just riding the moment, you know? You just hit the switch and every day’s a good day. Everything’s beautiful.

Well, define ‘problem.’ Everyone’s addicted to something. That’s my motto. Take a stockbroker: take away their money and they’ll withdraw, just like a priest if you take his faith. Everyone has something that they can’t live without. All we have to do is make sure we don’t run out of it.

You’ll learn to love it, though. I know it hurts the first time, but you’ll get over it. Some people even get addicted to the sting. Can you imagine? I wonder if they can get their fill just by sticking themselves with a needle. That would be much easier, huh? Yeah, just lie down, I’ll be there in a second. Do you remember when we were fifteen, and none of this had happened yet? When the worst thing we’d done was a little weed and some cigarettes? We used to get drunk together, and it meant the world. Man, that was a long, long time ago, huh? I felt so old.

Do you ever feel like the world is so far away? Like, time is just a thing, or something like that. You ever feel so quiet, so gone that everything just moves around you, and you’re frozen? Stuck to the moment? Can you hear me? Wow, you’re gone. Have a nice trip! *chuckles* Gimme a second… I’ll be there soon.


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I DO NOT HAVE AN ILP:

Posted by Aidan Williams in Ilp - 10Th Grade - Ames - Wed on Thursday, October 15, 2015 at 3:36 pm
I already met up with Jeremy.
I have to send an email to my friend's dad, who is a musician, who can supervise me recording my music.
This is my first year in SLA, and no one really explained ILPs to me going into the year. I've been playing it by ear since the start, and I am pretty close to having one.

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