“I just want to be free!”
I look around my surroundings, waterfalls, sunsets, and green grass sprouting out the ground not afraid to show its identity, unlike me, I am hiding behind my own shadows.
Birds chirping, singing me that beautiful lullaby I was never told as a child
I am tired.Not tired as in yearning for sleep but tired of my sorrows.
I guess blue, black, and red are my favorite colors because I wear them all the time.
It started when I was 7!
To young to know right from wrong but I guess I was old enough to know pain and misery, that’s all they’ve given me was pain and misery.
“I didn’t mean it, I’m sorry!” All my life these 6 powerful words have been spit upon. Sorrow and hurt have been stomped on, just…like… my… face.
My parents never game a damn about me.
I was simply just a check that came through the mail.
I just want to be loved!
I stand tall like the trees, but broken down like these rocks
Fuck the rain I created these waterfalls from my tears at night.
I am an abused child.
Why am I an abused child?
No one ever told me they loved me before I laid my head down at night.
What, am I not good enough for you?
Am I only worth your anger and animosity? Bittersweet kisses planted on my cheek from your fist. I guess you love to mark your territory.
“Shit I’m doing it again!”
Constantly feeling like I’m doing something wrong but I’m the victim!
“I just want to be free”
When I run they always find me, when I hide the lights are always being shun upon me.
So here I am
Standing upon this waterfall it’s my time to go.
No one can find me now. They would never look for someone so ugly in a place that’s so beautiful.
I’ve only lived 17 years and though so short it feels too long I jus want be free…. and suicide seems to be the only key to that door so here I go.
My foot loosing its grasp from the ground, eyes closed shut like the doors of freedom I am trying to open,
I have fallen.
My last breath hits the water, my hourglass has finally ran out.
I choke, cough out my last breath, my last air bubble. It flows deeper and deeper into the water as it relays my last message to the world, “I Am Free!”