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It was a dry windy morning in Wisconsin. Eggs, bacon, and the smell of blueberry pancakes rose through the cracks under the door, up to my nose. I woke up one minute before my alarm went off because of the very temping aroma. “Good morning  folks, time to rise and shine and jam with the top 25 hit pop songs…” were the first words I heard as I clumsily arose out of my bed. I could hear mom’s singing to the tunes that were playing on the same radio station. I walked downstairs to the kitchen to see mom and her new hubby dancing like the cool kids in Grease to Britney Spears 35th hit song. When my mom noticed I was standing there she ran over and kissed on the forehead and I began to sing and dance with my mom and Jack. 

Beep, Beep, Beep, I slapped the snooze button once again. And there was no smell of eggs, bacon, or blueberry pancakes rising through my door and into my nose, only the smell of old cigarettes and whiskey. I’d been having the same dream for the past year, hoping it would become my reality. Though I know it never would. I headed downstairs to see my mom passed out on the couch. “Mom, momma, wake up, it’s 8:00, it’s time for you pills.” I pushed and pushed until finally WAP! 
“Why you always gotta wake me up this early, huh!?” Momma snapped back. The only thing that faces her was my burning red cheek. This had been such routine that I only felt numb, both physically and mentally, and the walls didn’t seem to spin anymore, guess they’ve gotten use to it too. “Momma, take your pills.”

“I don’t won’t to!”

This time she breathed in my face allowing her raspy voice to force the putrid smell of day old whiskey, beer, and henisy up my nostrils. Dismissing her outburst I go into the kitchen and grab bread and medicine out of the half broken cabinet and walked back towards her. She tried to sit up on her own but couldn’t, so I sat next to her so she can rest her body on me. “Eat this.” She grabbed the bread and gobbled it down in seconds. “Take this” she shoved the pill in her mouth and I hold up a cup of water to her mouth to wash it down. She swallowed with resistance. She stared at me blankly and slurred  “This will be you pretty soon, yup, a low-life nothing, your already stupid, what else are you going do? Go to college HA!” She busted out in a hysterical laughter.

 “Yea, momma, yea” Tears almost formed in my eyes, but instead of crying I just kissed her on the forehead and said I love you. Then tore off the a label from an old water bottle from on top of our grand piano, and simply wrote goodbye. I walked out the front door and never looked back. 

White horse
The I loved you.. Forever and Always
The best day 
Crazier..Love story
Tim MacGraw, you belong with me
Teardrops on my guitar-
Back to december-fearless

I turned it the right way in iPhoto, but no matter what, it continues to be side ways. 

Mom: Are you hurt anywhere?
Me: Yeah, just on my jaw and the side of my head. I think I smacked it into Amirah during the crash.
Mom (Ten minutes later): Wait, how did you hit your head on a mirror if you were sitting in the back seat?
Me: MOM! AMIRAH NOT A MIRROR!

Hey There Delilah

Don’t Stop Believing

Keep Holding On

 

Don’t Rain on My Parade

My Life Would Suck Without You

Just the Way You Are

 

Without Love

It’s All Over

Right From the Start

 

So

Are You Ready for Love?

Here I am; caught up over simple things. Hurt, half crazy, broken hearted girl. If I were a boy, I proceed. Pick it up; get over it. Here I stand: lonely. Where to now? Never felt this way. Ain't no way it's over. Can't tell me nothing. Shoot me down, and I shake it off. I know you want me. Time to give in. Say you will stay with me; promise. Leave it all upto you. Don't get it twisted, I know the future no matter what.  

Kiss me, for the nights I can't remember
Follow me, To the eternal world beyond the moon (Tsuki no Mukou no Sekai)
Please be mine until the end of time

I'll never smile again, if you leave
Things will never be the same because of you

Why didn't I listen?

Lesson Learned: Live like you're dying, live like there's no tomorrow

Let me hold you a little bit longer because Love is my drug

If you were my girl I gotta feeling I will always love you, 
Because of you I feel free, 
Here I stand comfortable with you, 
I like it ... just the way you are,
After tonight I know I'm yours, 
Only you put it on me like that.
When it's over all I want is you, 
I want this forever, 
I gotta feeling you always be my sunshine.

How You Love Me Now

L: "I'll be right here waiting."
S: "Runaway, love."
L: "You belong with me."
S: "I don't believe you."
L: "Tell me why."
S: "You already know."
L: "If I had you, I'll be loving you."
S: "What you say?"
L: "I'm yours."
S: "Between me and you, I wanna be with you."
L: "Hate that I love you."
S: "I wanna let you go.."

Love is a battlefield...

But only english and History

This Woman's worth
immortal
no replacement
Girl, you found me
you saved me
you brought me to life
fly up mockingbird
no resistance
I found your love
Now what's my name
no tears
Daddy's Home
I love the way your not afraid
you belong with me
I don't wanna miss a thing
from you too me
no teardrops
no lies
everyone falls in love
Our Love
Our Story
You can thank me now ​

Boy: "Hey Ma, Beamer, Benz or Bentley?"
Girl: "No, scrub -_-"
Boy: "I gotta be your man."
Girl "Try again."
Boy: "You can get it all :)"
Girl: "Bye, Bye :/"
Boy: Your one in a million :)"
Girl: "I love the way you lie..."
Boy: "I want you back!"
Girl: "Ain't that funny :/"
Boy: "Baby don't go, You make me better."
Girl: "I don't wanna be alone."
Boy: "Sorry blame it on me, I get lonely too."
Girl: "We need a resolution."
Boy: "Why don't we fall in love?"
Girl: "Love is blind."
Boy: "I love you, Are we in this together?"
Girl: "I'm yours, Believe Me."

Afternoon drive.
I see a darkness, Twilight.
Turn left...
Crash!
Ambulance, in limbo, dosed.
Dreams, gasoline dreams.
Into the sun until the sun dies.
Tryst with Mephistopheles at my heels.
"Wake up my love!"
Never. Never. I saw the light.
"Come home my love!"
Never. Never. It's over.
La momma morta.
The big sleep.
"Say it ain't so!"
Hope you don't stoop to dirty words...
"Hell's Bells!"
 All for the best.
"Keep your hands off her bodysnatchers!"
Maybe not.
"Buggin' out if you go away"
Do me a favour, wild love, stay golden. 
 


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Vacation.  Travel in mind, The World Adventure. We Fly high,Airplan Trip, Touch the sky. Chicago, Where the sky is high. All around the world. Race with the devil on the Spanish highway, Flight over Rio. What a wonderful world. She saw you, Willing to follow you. That funny feeling, Unbreak my heart. Travel in mind, To Nowhere. The closer I get to you, Colors of the heart, Cupids chokehold. Paris, Tokyo, Just the two of us. In the end, Im still in love 

You're Crashing, but  you're no wave. Falling down, lost and confused. Do you realize? What goes around, comes around. Tomorrow comes today. Future is clear world is mine. Yet.. life  love you not. Something is missing in my life. Who am I living for? I am waiting on the world to change. Where do we go from here? I decided on day at a time. My own way, time for me to fly. We can go anywhere. You just don't know it. We'll be a dream...

Dear You,
Can you let me know what u want over and over again? I call your name bad. Love letter to Japan. Lovers in Japan, just the two of us, kinda like a big deal. All I want in this world, all I want is you. Because of you, I'm so crazy. You rock my world. You got me now daydreamin dreams. Everything just might be Ok. As I am with you, imagine just the two of us, on top of the World, young forever. A Day Dreaming...

First love, simplest love, feel the love, real love. The chills, love and caring, love and affection, I feel love. Lights out, if you can't sleep let's make out. Wake
Up
Up
Up
That was just a dream, love is dead.

Beautiful lady sometimes I cry. Can you believe that I care for you. Because of you, you take me away at your best. Sweetest girl we'er gonna make it when you believe love is you. 

All of the lights
Blackout
Who will survive in America
The messenger 
Like me
Lost in the world
Ill be Waiting 
Waiting for the end
When they come for me
I just wanna Run 
Runaway 
In the next room 
Stop and Stare
Hearing voices 
Who Dat
You know what it is 
Maybe Wretches and Kings 
Right above it
Cold wind Blows
The Downfall of us all 
Bright Lights 
Where the Story ends.