"Perry you didn't leave him outside did you?"
"I never even opened the back door!"
-dad- "Found him! He was in the chair!"
Swear like sailors
Classic Jersey stereotype when mad
Wish you weren't related
Teaching and Learning
Nothing without them
Family is all that and more
"Sure few minutes though"
-friend logs off after a while-
....forever alone v.v
"...Your able to work?"
"Don't you have to be like a adult?"
"This places youngest age requirement is 16 and I am 18 remember? "
The Running Blood
He was a flame-haired dodgy geezer, who had a a face full of stubble and an ability to fly. She was a mean spirited pub landlady who bungie jumped from bridges and yearned for the taste of blood. Together they rode through the night on their trusty steeds. Fighting gluttonous crime lords and freeing captured souls.
"No not really..."
"Sorry but I like the cold cause if I want to be warm I can hide with in my blankets. I also like in between heat"
"But its nice to be hot have the windows open, the balcony door and hav fans on..."
"Eh I guess"
"OH GO MOVE TO ALASKA!"
"Didn't say I wanna be that cold geez..."
"It just is I mean come on you freaking tweet at the same time! That means something"
"Um not really...."
"Yes it does! You two can be in completely different cities and there is that moment when you two magically tweet out at the exact same time"
"It means nothing!"
"It's fate so shut up and accept it! It like shows you two are in sync mentally"
".....twitter isnt fate teller. It's just a random thing that happens..which reminds me I love N*sync still. Gotta listen to them now"
"-_- I give up"
For me it was heart breaking. Not just cause they are dogs that are alone (I am a animal lover) But it was because of the loyalty that was there. In this world sometimes you don't see people practice this themselves. They tend to block others in bad situations out and simply go about their life. They don't care to help. With this disaster in Japan following the many we had had so far I just hope it opens more peoples eyes. But then again I know you cant change people in their ways or get everyone to get along. Still I can dream that people can feel loyal enough to stay with one another through out time of bad to help. Just like the pair of dogs. Because working together actually does not only help one another but keep us going in life.
I looked at my itunes. I changed the view so I could see the songs from highest play to lowest. My highest played song has been played 1385 times. It is the same exact song file I have had since it was released. I wonder if I should be worried it has so many plays. Then again the song came out in 2008....maybe it isn't that crazy. Oh well I don't care its my favorite song.
"Um dad....its only Tuesday..."
He looked away from the tv in shock before playing it off
"You knew I knew I was just testing you...you passed"
Time seemed to go by slowly as I waited. During this time the platform began to fill with more people. It became packed with some pushing into me. Very few were talking, most just stood watching and waiting. The bird chirping has steadily grew louder. My hands and chin felt numb from the cold. In my mind all I though of was "Where the heck is this train?" Usually the train is maybe 3 minutes late besides the rare occasion of being extremely late or canceled. There were no announcements made over the intercom this morning though. I took out my phone and looked at the time. It was 7:25 now. I decided to stay longer waiting. But I did text my dad to tell him about the train being late so far.
Couple more minutes passed when the intercom made a screeching sound. The familiar computer recorded voice began to speak "Attention all passenger. There are...currently... technical and electrical issues. Please expect delays.." The voice repeated it again before going off the intercom. I sighed with annoyance that this was happening. Especially with my grand parents being out of town. This meant my second option of getting to school was out the picture. Still though I waited.
Again the intercom came on. This time though there was a actual person. The woman began to speak. "Excuse me everyone. I am sorry for the inconvenience but it has just been announced Chestnut Hill West is currently having electrical problems with all the wires being down. No inbound or out of bound trains will be running till later today. Sorry again" Her voice faded out as I glared at the intercom. Many people began to leave the station, all angry. My phone showed the time was 7:37. In a huff I stormed down the steps and back across the street calling my dad. Sometimes I really hate the morning rush and septa.
"Yeah mom my knee just hurts no biggie"
"You are limping down the steps!"
"So just prepares me for school"
"I really don't think you should go if it is this bad"
I stopped on the third from final step and turned looking up the stairs at her on the second floor landing. I kept myself from saying ow aloud.
"Mom its ok I am tough"
"You can cause your self more harm"
"Mom I am not staying home-"
Suddenly my right knee gave out from under me and i flew forward. I threw my let arm out grabbing the banister, stopping myself from falling.
"Oh that is it! Your going to the doctor...TODAY"
My head feel back against my pillows and I squeezed my eyes shut. Why now? Even if Tab is my mother, we didn't have a real relationship. For the most part I went months (one time it was over a year) without hearing or seeing her. Then at random she would appear for a bit talk to my dad then vanish again. If I did see her in person we never talked much. She would ask my a few questions and if I tried to answer them she tuned out part way or if I asked her something she would kind of ignore it. There were times she would open up and we could connect but then she was gone. It always seemed to be the same cycle. That's why I can honestly say I am not one to open up to people or trust them. Just from Tab's actions. It doesn't just effect me either. My little half sister (who used to live with her) and my dad. She has all effected us and how we act with people in some way.
I looked down at the phone again. The message still started back at me. In my head I ping ponged back and forth about what to do. Mom (actually my grandmother who raised me like a mom) always told me it was my choice. If I wanted Tab in my life let her and if I didn't I wouldn't need to. Did I want to have a mother/daughter relationship enough to give her the chance to let her in even if she left again? Maybe I need to take my own time and reach out to her when I was ready? It wouldn't be on her own terms but my own. That way if she responded or not I would just be ready. Now what would be my choice though...
I randomly decided to try out cleverbot again after not using it in a very long time. I must say cleverbot is not only funny still but knows how to make someone happy ^_^
Even outside our looks is completely different. We have very different personalities to the extreme. How to simply condense down are major differences? Well she is off the wall, loud, bubbly, toughness 24/7. Though I can be loud at times I am actually quiet and reserved, out side of it and it plays up more in comparisons to her. If you put the two of us in a room she would run around while I write or read a book.
The list of our personality, likes, actions, even our appearances differences continues to grow. To some degree it makes me wonder why did I wish for a little sister. But then again it doesn't. I adore Zoe more then anyone. Since we were little I always dotted upon her and cared for her. I use her as an inspiration to work hard so that she has a good role model to look up to. Even if we don't get to see one another often I always let her know where to find me so she can have me to talk to and get support from. Never would I let her down because we are sisters.
E:more i look at her the more i see myself. lol but my hair ain't that long
Me: true -looks at the max one- huh my hair is naturally like hers but u know dark and bangs
E:i love max's hair.
E:and her wings
Me:oh heck no thats my bomber jacket!
E:i was just about to say that jacket looks like something you would wear
Mei swear thats the one i have been talking about
Me:yes, my collar is just bigger i think
I went and tried the jacket
I took a photo and showed her.
E:oh snaps they doo look the same
Me: lol told u
Even though the road has been hard. Even if tears have fallen now there is hope for the sun to appear, to dry them all away and guide me on. Though there is the weight trying to be what others want I keep all my dreams tucked inside my heart. Some how I will find the strength to keep moving on past this pain. Following this secret dream in my heart. Someday it will lead me to where I belong. To a dream that is true and to love that is so pure
Tough roads now but sunshine ahead.
Oh they don't bite! Never return.
Sweet smiles, hidden secretes in it.
"Perfect sunny weather tomorrow!" Clouds outside.
"You totally look like her"
"I do not she is korean"
"You have the same nose"
"I have my mother's nose"
"Your eyes are the same"
"Eh I doubt it"
-she sent a picture to me-
"See you look the same"
"You seriously think so?"
"Well I dunno..."
After that argument almost a year ago you can say I am convinced that at times we look a tiny bit alike. But not always it is just a bit a those random moments.
We fished walking from under the one bride then were under the next. Across the street we heard one fall and looked over. It was quiet loud but we brushed it off and kept talking. One of us cracked a joke about something and began laughing. We were almost out from under the bridge. What happened next I remembered clearly. I suddenly felt strength tugging me backwards. My eyes were opened wide in shock then I looked over my shoulder as Zach cheerily said hi. Before I got any words out I heard a loud close by crack. I looked back to the spot where I was about to step before Zach stopped me. A giant icicle (and by giant I mean it had be be almost a 4th my size or so) snapped and quickly fell with force into the spot where I would have been. It was like time slowed a bit as I watched it break, the pieces of ice spraying out. In my head I thought of how scary it was that fell, how hurt I would have been if it hit me and how glad I was Zach did something really goofy.
"Lets mix it up! We are going to the beach"
I grinned excitedly from the backseat of the car. For me random little mix up like these I lived for and if it involved the beach I was triple excited. The trip passed by for a long while as I zoned out listening to a shuffle of Owl City's Ocean Eyes on my iPod. All the windows had been rolled down to cool out the hot car. Though it was a bit uncomfortable I ignored it at the thought of the trip being worth it.
Over a hour into our trip Juanita convinced Tracy we needed more sunscreen and hats to protect ourselves from the sun one we arrived at the beach. Tracy turned the car into a random K-mart (I thought it was funny that we found one of the competitors to the place we actually meant to go to) parking lot. We got out the car, as I did I grabbed the dress I bought earlier in the day. To me it was not only as chance to literally feel cooler in the high heat but perfect moment to wear it. Once inside the store I asked a clerk inside if I could use their restroom or changing room which they allowed. Excitedly I went and changed before me and Tracy went on a scavenger hunt trying on hats and to find better sunscreen. Once done we returned to the car again and jetted off down the high way.
Within another hour or so we arrived in a small beach town that we didn't even know the name of (and we still don't.) We drove through the town till we got to the other side to the beach. Quickly we found a parking spot then all climbed out. I dug in my purse fishing out my camera then hide my purse with in the seats again. We headed up the boardwalk and walked along. Many people were heading off the beach walking over to restaurants, walking along the board while others were still camped out with their families watching and playing in the waves. I looked around happily snapping away with my camera. After walking for a bit we bought some waters and sat on the side of the board walk looking at the shore line as the sunset began. I sat their admiring it then picked up my camera and tried to time it till I got the perfect shot. When I looked at the screen on my camera I felt proud feeling it was one of the best photos I had taken. The best photo taken on a random family trip that I would never forget.
Karen and I each took our box then I reached with out thinking for the check. Usually I am not the one to handle looking at it first, just handing in my share of money and ignoring it. Today though I wanted to see it. Kimme and Jacob both tried to look at it from my sides but I blocked their views of it. Slowly I unfolded it my eyes scanning down it and immediately landed my eyes on the big total. "A hundred and forty one dollars?!" I heard myself said wide eyed. I quickly gave the check to Kimme who passed it along the table to Anthony (who is kinda like our master to breaking up the money). We were all well a little more then surprised. We had worked out a way so that we all would be able to eat what we wanted and have enough for tip. Seeing close to $150 spent was just not what we were used too. Sure at other places we spent a $100 or so but most we ever went over was to a $115.
Quickly I handed over Jacob and I's share of the money and Karen her own. As we all threw our money together in a sense of panic, confusion and a bit of anger from some people. We couldn't understand how almost $20 had been added extra onto our bill. I mean come on we even partnered (with the exception of Karen) for one of those special cheap meal deals. Then we saw the fine print beside the extra cost stating it was for tip. Anthony stated to us all that we were almost $30 dollars short until Andrew returned to the table adding in his share.
Anthony once again went over counting it then looked up with a bit of a laugh, upset and shock. “Uhhh guys we are 10 short” We all panicked throwing in what ever change we had left. The boys joked about how we would have to stay and worked which seemed to anger Evett and Kimme more. I felt more so embarrassed and upset about it. Even a people had given us that dumb kids look. But before I could worry more about it (or wonder if it was true we would have to work there) we magically conjured up the remaining $10 paying our bill in the exact amount. We all payed in relief and without thinking I said to Evett “OK you know what for your party maybe we will just take you to Liberty Place and pick food cause now we are all broke and not eating like this again” I think our lesson was learned.
Just then my mother looked into my room looking curiously and said “Hey there need help with something.” I tilted my head and opened one of my eyes. “Just writing a story mom” On her face there was a look that consisted of a mixture of please tell me my own kid did not forget how to write, interest like a little kid and why didn’t I tell her. “Heyyyyy think I can maybe help,” she said like a kid, which couldn’t help but make you smile. “No thanks mom I can get this sooner or later….or really later..” I said smiling a bit. She pouted and said awed before shuffling out of my room. Of course I knew it was jokingly. She always used her kid act at times for fun.
Once she left I leaned back on my bed again trying to think of an idea. I tried everything I could to get some sort of creativity going. Shuffled through iTunes, imed friends and played a puzzle game. Still I had nothing that inspired me to write. Mentally I had given up and that was the moment it hit me. I shot right up and began writing. Grinning at my laptop and said to myself thinking I was a genius “A story about a story…how perfect...” Before I allowed to let myself let out my genius life I continued to type on happily.
As I mentioned before in another post the most important groups I thought of getting in contact with would be PETA and Humane Society. Even the ASPCA I thought could be a good contact in trying to help push out info with this project. Because of another animal rights project I did before PETA’s official twitter had become a follower of mine. I used this as one resource into getting in contact with them. Though I did not get a message in return I tried on there as well as with other contact info I could find. The same went for the ASPCA but with them I also had another advantage. My father had known someone who worked with the ASPCA. With that he also helped with trying to help me with contact him.
At times it seemed as if trying to contact and all wouldn’t work out to something. Outside of those people I tried to contact there were other places that were talking about this. It was nice to see that a small amount of blogs did take the time too talk about this as well. It does mean that this bill is being heard and will help it get discussed about. At this point I now I wonder if I should continue this project since it is over and if so how.
This benchmark to me was definitely one that I learned from as I went along. Yet when it came to the process of working on this benchmark I did have complications. From choosing the correct tops to include and also actually writing each paragraph there where many little complications along the way. Still I continued to work hard in order to get the full amount that I could learn out of this project.
When it came to choosing my topics I tried to think of things that related to my life. Such as for looking into the judicial branch I found it easier to look into Supreme Court cases about students. Executive branch & legislative was easier to look into things I encounter everyday. Once I got to this point I then went onto pointing out specifics in order to narrow down my topics. From there I went on to researching, formatting and writing. Writing the paragraphs was the most complicated part for me as at times I was unsure what to say.
With this benchmark I realized how much of a role the government plays already into my day to day lie. From what I see I know that this wont change. As I get older attend college, get a job, eventually my own home, etc. The government will always be there in some way playing a role in how I live and what I do. The ways it will be present might change compared to now but who is to say.
For my bureaucracy flow chart project me and my partners looked into Social Security benefits for adults with disabilities. This is for helping people with financial pay or insurances like benefits. There was also a process into looking to get benefits for disabled children. Though it is similar to this in the process but we switched into looking into adults instead.
The process for going about working in my group was each of taking a part. My partners worked on most of the paperwork and on researching the forms. I also researched and used what they did to creat a flow chart. While working on the chart they would review and give input to help. The paperwork we went through with our project was complex for the fact that there were many other things that are needed to fill out these forms. With out them the process can not take place.
When working on the flow chart the one thing I would have changed would be that the process sometimes became hard. It was hard for the fact that at times certain forms couldn't be accessed without a really social security number. Others said there were things you needed from other sources which we needed to make up to complete this. I think that this complication it had though was in order to make sure people aren't abusing benefits for their own needs and wants. In the end though it was very interesting to look into and learn about.
The progress for my bill (for those who forgot it is S.3921 for helping stop animal testing as well as testing on humans) has been nothing so far which has been very complicated in helping me. I have been thinking of ways to help communicate out this bill to help it get progress. After thinking for a while I was able to think of ways that work with today's world to help get this bill progress.
Way number 1 is to start a twitter account made to get this bill support. Because twitter is a constant live feed it is easy to get information out there. It will also help get in contact with organizations and people who could help get the word out. This in turn can help build up a good following to help.
Another way to help connect with people would be to link the twitter to a facebook page. On there I could have information about the bill, why it is important and how to help. There would be a link out to a petition to people could sign if they are from Pennsylvania and also for the districts. For other areas I would have a area where they can create their own petition to send to their officials.
Lastly is trying to get through with more officials and people who could help. For this I simple need to arrange a better list. Also is figuring out the best ways to get through with each person or combination of ways to get through with people.This might be easier one the twitter and facebook are done because there will be more help with getting through. Hopefully this will all go through without a hitch to help.
During the break between the last blog post and this one I kept checking in on the progress of my bill. Progress though for this bill though has been very minimal. If you don’t remember the bill that I have been tracking is the S.3921. This proposed bill is to ensure that “approval of pharmaceutical and biological products do not require violations of medical ethics in the testing of products in humans and vertebrate animals.” Senator Bernard Sanders of Vermont proposed it on September 29th, 2010.
The progress of how my bill is doing I think is effected by currant events as well as people’s support and awareness. Senator Sanders has no listed co-supporters with his bill. If the people were more informed about all proposed laws not just ones that are pushed to the forefront of the media getting them discussed. If a bill like S.3921 got more media attention it would be more discussed. Discussion would then lead to people supporting it and bring awareness to their Senators. The current discussion about this bill has been very minimal. Only 7 blogs (blogs listed here) have recently talked about it (technically 8 if this one is included). That shows how little information is being pushed out there to help this bills progress.
A major way to get this bill a boast in ordered to be noticed would be to push out the information about the bill to animal rights organization and groups. Think about if groups like PETA and The Humane Society of The United States (as well as many others that you can find listed here and here) were to push out a story about this bill. Sending this information to their followers and supporters that would make a major impact in rising in awareness. More stories would be spread out, petitions could be made and signed to send to lawmakers and so much more could happen. Brining awareness from the people would make politicians step in with the process of this bill and reviewing it. It would almost be like a repeat of the process of the Animal Fighting Prohibition Enforcement Act of 2007. Because it was relvent to cases in the media and had gained a high amountof support encouraging lawmakers to take part made this bill soon become a law. If this could happen again things would happen a lot quicker.
When it comes to looking at the evolution of the thumb it is seen with in Homo erectus or Homo habilis. What cause the thumb to become advanced though in our ancestors? A possible idea is the advancement of walking up right as proposed by Suzanna Kemmer. It is thought that as our ancestors began to walk up right there was now new usage for their hands. From this they created tools and learned to use resources that were around. Another possibility is the development of a gene enhancer known as HACNS1 that was found by Yale scientist. The HACNS1 enhancer is thought of as being a “human-specific gene enhancers, which are switches near genes in the human genome.”
Knowing the possibility of our thumb makes us wonder how certain other animals developed their own thumbs. Primates have four categories that divide them based upon their thumbs. There are non-opposable, pseudo-opposable, opposable and opposable long. What causes their classification of thumbs different from ours is the fact that their thumbs do not fully rotate along its axis like our own does. So categories are divided by the amount of independence the thumb has. Other animals with “thumbs” are Giant Pandas (not a actual thumb but a extra bone that functions as one to help them eat bamboo), certain marsupials (in order to climb and gather food) and most birds also have an opposable digit.
Without the thumb or in the case of other animals with thumb like appendages where would they be? Where would we be? Better yet one should ponder with this special adaptation we have what could possible evolve next from it as an adaptation. Will our thumbs slowly change in shape, size or movement? Or will that happen to another species? Who is to actually say what will happen. All we can do is watch what will take place.
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