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So today I'm feeling really good for some reason.
 This is a pleasant change from the depression I had sunk in all week. I'm smiling more and laughing and actually living life without stress, or just not thinking about the things that stress me out.  All week I have been debating on letting somebody go out of my life, who just cause me extra stress at times, or keep stringing them along, just to blatantly cut them off the day I go to college. Right now I think If i let go, It will blow up in my face before I get to college, but if I wait, it can be over and done with.
 I could always make up a lie as to why I was letting them lose, but I really don't feel like all the extra drama. Ho could you tell someone to leave you alone because they cause you too much stress and your tired of them? There is no nice way to say that.  but to a person who tells you the they can't live without you, I don't want any foul repercussions to leave anybody in a bad mood.

 Well anyway, I go a 94 on my math benchmark, Mr. Miles said, It was the best that he has graded so far. That made me smile  alot.  SO today is going good like I said before, I don't even mind that I have to file papers for Ms. Diane to make up for Saturday detention.

in all of my classes.
I am so happy. I hope I have more A's then B's, but math is my main focus. I really, really want a B.

I'm going to Mr. Baird's class now.
Wish me luck.
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I am having some slight difficulty with this last portion of the English benchmark.  I tried to set up a new twitter account but I could not get the "create an account" page to load.  So then I went online and researched some twitter-like sites that I could possibly use in school.  I ended up finding this site called "GupShup" which is basically the same thing as Twitter, but it is based in India.  My only issue is going to be finding people to follow me on the website.

So if you could, please follow me on GupShup and join the group "forgetmeforget".

I am an anonymous user, by the way.

Click Here!

Well yesterday I realized during school that it was my fathers birthday. Afterschool before work I had to scramble to get him something nice for his birthday. Bought him some cheap little trinkets and then it was time for me to get to work. Work is the same as usual, boring and tedious as usual. Its a weird combination really... After work I have to do errands for my mom, picking up some lady all the way in New Jersey and then coming back home with her and a hour later dropping her off again back at her house. My whole evening was gone, it was around 11pm and I just had to wash up and get cozy in bed. Then I realized I had so much homework to do, however it was just not possible to do when you can barely keep your eyes open.

I was able to obtain a new skill today and that is cutting hair.

I totally lost the desire to do any more work in school. I feel like I'm done learning in high school, and now I'm just "working" for the grade. This last 2 months are really the longest of my life.

X:  Sike naw
     <3
     I love youu
     Yo te quiero

Y:  I Hate youh
    Aweeee

X:  :D

Y:  Yo Tambien Te Quiero
    Mucho Pendejo  <3

X:  What pendejo?
     lmao

Benchmark season is in full swing. Once this time comes around there are groups of students huddled in every corner of the school trying to get work done. My friends and I decided to go to the college office. We asked could we work in here and we were told "Yea sure why not?"
We began working and eating lunch with limited dialogue, this was the quietest lunch since second quarter. We were interrupted with" We need this room." We responded we're working." He looked and said "It looks like your socializing." I rudely responded with "Looks can be deceiving, you're older, you're wiser you should know that right." "He said look I'm gonna have to give you the boot." My friend said" You dont have to do anything." He began to get impatient and yelled these kids need to work on their PSSA and its more important than benchmarks." My friends and I looked at each other sideways knowing we disagreed. It doesn't to us we have to do these benchmarks to graduate by the time those tests are processed and graded we will be enjoying our summer vacations. As we were packing our belongings because we gave up on the argument and decided to just yell, one of my friends said "Hold up they shoulda been finished that test, its not my fault they couldn't finish that problem or came late." Then we walked out. I never thought that this test would frustrate me and I'm not even taking it. I'm a senior it shouldn't even bother me.

Tomorrow, I leave for my three day Georgetown visit.  One thing makes this an even bigger occasion.  I will be traveling on a Megabus alone and will take the Metro and Rossyln shuttle to campus without the aid of my parents.  Yes, I've traveled around the world, but my parents have never let me take a trip filled with unfamiliar routes, numbers and names without some form of supervision.  I'm both nervous and excited; it's time for me to get a taste of college life.  If I'm not in school on Monday, I guess you'll know why..

Where do I start? So last week Wednesday my sis, my aunt, and my niece and I went to War-mart to look for something I can’t even remember what is was that we went to buy but anyways that’s not the problem. So we’re at the store and my niece is crying so I give her my purse to play with while she’s in the cart and I’m pushing her and then my aunt comes over and ask me to go to the food mart to get her some cinnamon pretzel. So I took my niece out of the cart and give her to her mom and went to get the pretzel for my aunt. While standing in the line I realize that I didn’t have my purse with me so I asked my aunt and sis if they had it and they both said no. I was like it was in the cart with Camilla they were like its not here. So I left the food mart and went to look in the cart and for real it was gone. I couldn’t believe it, because I was only gone for less than 5 minutes and somehow someone manages to take it with out my sis and aunt seeing him or her. So what I did next was to go to customer service and see if anyone had returned it. When I went and asked the girl there if they found a little pink purse of if someone returned it she looked in the cabinet and said no. I asked if they could check the cameras to see if they can see what happen, she called and then told me to go and stand where everything happen so I did and after some time I came back to her to see what she would say and she said that they didn’t see anything and that was it. I was getting mad because they really didn’t seem to care much. So I decided to go home and call my bank to cancel my cards and I called the police to make a police report. The worst part was when I called they asked me for my info and told me that a officer would contact me within an hour and to this date no one has ever contacted me. I’ve been so stressed because I have my entire life in my purse my visa card, $200; gift cards, social security card, IDs, pictures, receipts, and more and now I have to get everything again. I really hate people that steals.

If I could go back in time, I would have never wasted my breath. And said I love you.

I'm glad it's a rainy day. It's perfect weather to go home cuddle up by the fire and nap... and that's exactly what I'm going to do when I go home.  Thank goodness, we get out at 12:50 today. I don't think I can handle a whole day of school, especially because I actually asserted myself in class by doing work. I haven't done that in a while. I smell good. I used this perfume today. I never wear perfume but today I thought I might as well try it. I'm not going to wear it again because it is not mine and I'm not going to go out and buy it. I think perfume is kind of a waste of money.  I think a majority of perfumes all smell the same and the scent isn't that great. They all smell to much like chemicals, however the perfume I'm using today didn't. Sorry this writing is kind of all over the place. I don't know what to write about, so I'm just writing down whatever comes to my head.

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My computers dead so I'm using Missy's
So I really need to start doing these everyday!
Right now I am completely lost in history class.
Enron this and Enron that, I've heard it so much that you would think that your talking about someone rather then something. Ughh I hate school anymore.

I'm so tired of school.
I just realized that I have so much work that I have to catch up on, it makes me sick to my stomach.
I have to sit in Mr. Baird's room for 3 class periods, but we're learning about Enron. It's really cool.

Kill me. Please.
I'm really tired, talk about my luck this morning.
I woke up at 5:00 a.m. and nobody was awake, so I went back to bed. I was awoken at 6:55, without the realization that it was 6:55, and my mother screaming at me to get up and move. Keep in mind, I leave my house at 7 everyday.
I rolled over, checked my phone, and Devon Thomas had called me. Immediately, I knew she would give me a ride to school. Thank god for friends.
I called her back, she answered and said she had just woke up not too long ago and that she would pick me up and take me home. Thank you dear jesus the lord.
<3.

Love my life.

165 days.
CAN'T FLIPPING WAIT. bye.

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In the darkest night a young boy waits for sleep to take him far away to a place that he controls. As he fades out of this darkness he finds himself in a different kind. He's in the middle of a field, storm clouds fill the sky and the rain pours down in what looks like sheets. He sees a white light ahead of him and he walks towards it. He gets closer, but the light never seems to actually be closer. He stops and frowns, wills the light to come closer but it continues to stay so far away.
He lies in the wet grass with his eyes closed, the rain pelting his eye lids. He wills for her to be there; the girl with the white hair and dark purple eyes. He feels her beside him and reaches his hand out towards her and she takes it. Her skin is warm and her heart beats loudly. He opens his eyes and watches hers and then he points to the white light, but it isn't there anymore. He tries to explain it to her, but she just smiles at him and nods her head. And the longer this goes on, the more frustrated he becomes. Doesn't she believe him? Why isn't she saying anything? He becomes more and more animated about it… And then she disappears. She's never disappeared before, never left him. He stares at the space she was just sitting in and wonders where she went. he stands up to look around for her, but he doesn't see her… He just sees a white light far away from him.

Ella es intelligente
She is silly
Ella es extraña 
She is funny
Ella es Loren :D

​My brother and I have a tumultuous relationship with my brother.  We're five years apart.  When he was younger, I remember pulling him around in a toy wagon.  He would laugh and tell me to run faster.  However, as we've gotten older, it has become harder to see eye to eye.  As the older sibling, I like to be in charge (in fact, I like to be in charge in almost any relationship), but he now refuses to recognize my authority.  

On New Year's Eve, I had a party and invited my friends.  Trevor decided to raid it with his Nerf guns, shooting everyone in sight.  When we finally broke into teams (I somehow ended up on his team), I was taken hostage and he shot me anyway!

Regardless to say, I was surprised when I heard that we was really going to miss me when I went away to college.  My parents separated a few years ago and it has been really hard on both of us.  He's in therapy right now, trying to smooth out those issues.  My mom told me that part of the problem was that I was leaving him too.  

A week ago, I was in my room, facebooking and listening to music.  My brother knocked on my door and asked me to come out.  I said, "Sure, just a minute" but then got right back to my computer.  I completely forgot about him, and five minutes later came rushing out. 

"What's up, Trev?"
"I just wanted to tell you that I love you and I'm really going to miss you when you go to college."

He has never brought me so close to tears.