I'm a student teacher for freshman drama and I find it really rewarding. Being in the audience and watching magic happen on stage is just priceless to me. But when Mr. Kay actually asked me to grade there scenes it became slightly less fun. It was still fun and completely enjoyable but it's still hard to type in that 7 or 8 in the grade book for a kid you just adore. But you know deep down they didn't do their best or just completely half assed their scene. But I guess I have to put my personal feelings aside and think "It's just business" because I can't live with myself giving them the same grade as someone who worked hard for it vs. you who just went through the motions. It's a very fine line that seems hard not to cross sometimes. I'm very happy and willing to teach them what I know and help them grow; that's what I love about teaching. But the grading aspect I don't envy at all.
PSSA's are a stressful test that I am glad I dont need to take anymore. Waste of everyones time since it doesnt even benefit the student at all but just make them stressed for no reason.
I've figured out that I can actually accomplish the math benchmark. I don't have to run away to an undisclosed island in the ocean now o happy days........... I really do need to find my pills in all seriousness though.
As you can clearly tell, I enjoy riding what someday will be my Harley. And also, you can notice that this other picture is clearly not me, but its actually what I am doing on the weekends from 7-5 at Geno's.
Prom is a stressful thing, the more you think about the things that you don't have in order, the more the stress piles on. I don't have a dress, many in mind, but none that I have actually went to go get fitted in. One dress its a Chiffon Grecian Dress in Ice Pink. it looks really nice and I really have my mind set on that one.
Other than not having a prom dress, I don't have a date either. I swear at this point , I will take ANYBODY, who is tall, brown skin, and has a nice smile, oh and he has to have a nice award winning personality and all that. But that is hectic, I'm still waiting for Mr. MIles to update my math grade because my mom is waiting on that to start getting things together. Prom is May 20th, its damn near April now, I hate doing anything last minute.
On top of not having a dress, or a date, i have no type of transportation. I really despise my mom for her "cheap" ways. I hope she plan to spend well into the hundreds for my prom because I want to be nice. I wanna get picked up in a nice car and get seen off by family and friends and just have a wonderful night. I be damned If I get dropped of in the dirty ass soccer mom van she keep joking with smh.
All in all, I feel like getting prom together is going to be a disaster. i don't even have after prom plans. fml
For the past month I've just been drained of energy. I don't know why. It sucks. I'll be sitting in school feeling fine and then all of a sudden a powerful force of sleep overcomes me. I know it's not from my sleeping habits, since everyday I come home and go to bed at 7 or 8. I've actually been getting the greatest sleep of my life but yet I get hit with drowsiness in the middle of the day. First, my body feels physically exhausted and all I want to do is sleep and sometimes I doze off in class; which I hate doing because it's so disrespectful, but I really can't stay awake. Now, if don't go to sleep and be disrespectful in class I become very irritable and I get annoyed at everything, so either way I'm a bitch by either sleeping in class or being irritable if I stay awake. I hate it. It's frustrating not to know why I get so tired like this too. I hope it stops.
So today I'm feeling really good for some reason. This is a pleasant change from the depression I had sunk in all week. I'm smiling more and laughing and actually living life without stress, or just not thinking about the things that stress me out. All week I have been debating on letting somebody go out of my life, who just cause me extra stress at times, or keep stringing them along, just to blatantly cut them off the day I go to college. Right now I think If i let go, It will blow up in my face before I get to college, but if I wait, it can be over and done with. I could always make up a lie as to why I was letting them lose, but I really don't feel like all the extra drama. Ho could you tell someone to leave you alone because they cause you too much stress and your tired of them? There is no nice way to say that. but to a person who tells you the they can't live without you, I don't want any foul repercussions to leave anybody in a bad mood.
Well anyway, I go a 94 on my math benchmark, Mr. Miles said, It was the best that he has graded so far. That made me smile alot. SO today is going good like I said before, I don't even mind that I have to file papers for Ms. Diane to make up for Saturday detention.
I am having some slight difficulty with this last portion of the English benchmark. I tried to set up a new twitter account but I could not get the "create an account" page to load. So then I went online and researched some twitter-like sites that I could possibly use in school. I ended up finding this site called "GupShup" which is basically the same thing as Twitter, but it is based in India. My only issue is going to be finding people to follow me on the website.
So if you could, please follow me on GupShup and join the group "forgetmeforget".
Well yesterday I realized during school that it was my fathers birthday. Afterschool before work I had to scramble to get him something nice for his birthday. Bought him some cheap little trinkets and then it was time for me to get to work. Work is the same as usual, boring and tedious as usual. Its a weird combination really... After work I have to do errands for my mom, picking up some lady all the way in New Jersey and then coming back home with her and a hour later dropping her off again back at her house. My whole evening was gone, it was around 11pm and I just had to wash up and get cozy in bed. Then I realized I had so much homework to do, however it was just not possible to do when you can barely keep your eyes open.
I went to starbucks, and I ordered my grande vanilla rooibos tea latte. Then I saw the cashier slowly tell the barista my order and he was using his hands a lot. The barista responded with a grunt and began to make my drink. While my drink was being made, I was brimming with excitement because I was going to thank the barista in sign language. I have never been more impatient for tea in my entire life. So, I did it, and when she saw it she got all excited too and said thank you back in sign language. It isn't anything big, you just touch your lips with the tips of your fingers and gesture forward. But it made me feel good that I knew how to communicate with her.
Even though it was raining off & on today was a good day.
I wish I had that song by Ice Cube play in my background of life because it was a really good day. It started of shakey due to the fact of me running late and not being able to get coffee but, then Jeremy totally got me some.
I moved from a D to a C in STATS which is epic 10 more points till I'm a B. After school I hung out with Dyamond (best friend) did some bonding then a basketball with her mom. It was pretty hoob like grannies go in when there grandson is playing.
IMHOMTEP people go hard like the stadium was roaring I couldn't handle it shit gets real.
I totally lost the desire to do any more work in school. I feel like I'm done learning in high school, and now I'm just "working" for the grade. This last 2 months are really the longest of my life.
Benchmark season is in full swing. Once this time comes around there are groups of students huddled in every corner of the school trying to get work done. My friends and I decided to go to the college office. We asked could we work in here and we were told "Yea sure why not?" We began working and eating lunch with limited dialogue, this was the quietest lunch since second quarter. We were interrupted with" We need this room." We responded we're working." He looked and said "It looks like your socializing." I rudely responded with "Looks can be deceiving, you're older, you're wiser you should know that right." "He said look I'm gonna have to give you the boot." My friend said" You dont have to do anything." He began to get impatient and yelled these kids need to work on their PSSA and its more important than benchmarks." My friends and I looked at each other sideways knowing we disagreed. It doesn't to us we have to do these benchmarks to graduate by the time those tests are processed and graded we will be enjoying our summer vacations. As we were packing our belongings because we gave up on the argument and decided to just yell, one of my friends said "Hold up they shoulda been finished that test, its not my fault they couldn't finish that problem or came late." Then we walked out. I never thought that this test would frustrate me and I'm not even taking it. I'm a senior it shouldn't even bother me.
Tomorrow, I leave for my three day Georgetown visit. One thing makes this an even bigger occasion. I will be traveling on a Megabus alone and will take the Metro and Rossyln shuttle to campus without the aid of my parents. Yes, I've traveled around the world, but my parents have never let me take a trip filled with unfamiliar routes, numbers and names without some form of supervision. I'm both nervous and excited; it's time for me to get a taste of college life. If I'm not in school on Monday, I guess you'll know why..
Where do I start? So last week Wednesday my sis, my aunt,
and my niece and I went to War-mart to look for something I can’t even remember
what is was that we went to buy but anyways that’s not the problem. So we’re at
the store and my niece is crying so I give her my purse to play with while
she’s in the cart and I’m pushing her and then my aunt comes over and ask me to
go to the food mart to get her some cinnamon pretzel. So I took my niece out of
the cart and give her to her mom and went to get the pretzel for my aunt. While
standing in the line I realize that I didn’t have my purse with me so I asked my
aunt and sis if they had it and they both said no. I was like it was in the
cart with Camilla they were like its not here. So I left the food mart and went
to look in the cart and for real it was gone. I couldn’t believe it, because I
was only gone for less than 5 minutes and somehow someone manages to take it
with out my sis and aunt seeing him or her. So what I did next was to go to customer
service and see if anyone had returned it. When I went and asked the girl there
if they found a little pink purse of if someone returned it she looked in the
cabinet and said no. I asked if they could check the cameras to see if they can
see what happen, she called and then told me to go and stand where everything
happen so I did and after some time I came back to her to see what she would
say and she said that they didn’t see anything and that was it. I was getting
mad because they really didn’t seem to care much. So I decided to go home and
call my bank to cancel my cards and I called the police to make a police
report. The worst part was when I called they asked me for my info and told me
that a officer would contact me within an hour and to this date no one has ever
contacted me. I’ve been so stressed because I have my entire life in my purse
my visa card, $200; gift cards, social security card, IDs, pictures, receipts,
and more and now I have to get everything again. I really hate people that steals.
I'm glad it's a rainy day. It's perfect weather to go home cuddle up by
the fire and nap... and that's exactly what I'm going to do when I go
home. Thank goodness, we get out at 12:50 today. I don't think I can
handle a whole day of school, especially because I actually asserted
myself in class by doing work. I haven't done that in a while. I smell
good. I used this perfume today. I never wear perfume but today I
thought I might as well try it. I'm not going to wear it again because
it is not mine and I'm not going to go out and buy it. I think perfume
is kind of a waste of money. I think a majority of perfumes all smell
the same and the scent isn't that great. They all smell to much like
chemicals, however the perfume I'm using today didn't. Sorry this
writing is kind of all over the place. I don't know what to write about,
so I'm just writing down whatever comes to my head.
I've recently started convincing people to play Age of Empires 2. this is problematic because i'm doing it during times (where i told myself earlier in attempts to rationalize goofing off) i'm supposed to be working. Also I won't be in english today because of a dentist appointment, someone tell Mr.Chase
